Saturday, March 28, 2009

Is it time to go back yet?

Why is it you never really know how much you will miss something until you are away from it. Last time it was holidays, it was just as bad but time has a habit of making one forget that. It isn't as if University is without it's problem, stress and moments of boredom but here still doesn't compare. I had become kind of complacent about Uni and all of the things there, getting a little bored of the monotony that life at Uni has begun to become. It seems to be a lot about drinking and not a lot else but that is changeable and to be honest I don't care about those things. It is mostly the people, or should I say person that makes being away from Uni seem so dull.

Though, as I said Uni isn't without it's problems too. Mainly to do with a particular person. I know that me keeping something from them is causing them upset but it is so much more complicated than they could ever know without me explaining. It isn't that I don't trust him. I also don't entirely not want them to know but it is so hard for me to admit this weakness. I guess part of me does think they might think worse of me although I know it is unlikely. I would really like for him to understand though because I don't want to be the cause of any of his worries. I would like to be able to tell him or to be living without the thing I am unwilling to share but for the time being neither seems possible. I plan to try and resolve it one way or another but for the moment, I just want cuddles.

No comments: