My secrets inside

It's been awhile and oh how I cringe

2010-03-04T14:34:00.002Z

Yes it is me. It has been many years, okay so maybe months but long enough that when I read back previous posts I cringed and wondered why I'd been so honest. I'm sure at the time I believed and felt exactly what I write but now I look back I wonder why I said some things I did. It definately only takes a little time to gain some perspective. I feel I should blog more but I've been going through a stage where everything is normal and I don't have enough strong emotions about anything to write, atleast not write anything very interesting but I will be back. I just haven't decided when.

Have a little respect please ladies?

2009-04-12T01:15:00.002+01:00

I went out to Harpers nightclub tonight and I'm a little saddened to be honest. I don't understand what goes through some womens heads when they leave for a night out. Do they want to be groped by creepy old and sleazy men? They turn up in nothing, flaunt themselves on podiums at every available oppertunity and act in a way which makes me cringe. Guys too behave awfully. Why is it ok for them to grope women in a club? They'd surely be arrested if they did it on a street during the day. People go to these clubs, destroy their bodies and their dignitys and get what out of it? I'm sure they love it but why is the question I'm asking myself. I just can't begin to understand.

Arrogance

2009-04-09T00:21:00.003+01:00

I do think it is rather funny when people are arrogant (or should I say one person) especially when their opinion is conveyed to a friend and not you. I have to say this particular arrogance is not warranted in the slightest so he really does need to get over himself but I guess he may not really think it and it could just be a defensive thing. I guess everyone would want to think the same. But sadly for them, they are so very wrong. I'm sure he's great for someone else but not for me, as I think I can currently do no better than I already am. :D Oh and just as an after thought, I wonder if I'll ever get spoken to again. A hi might be nice but as I now see I am so very different to them, even if they wanted to be, which is unlikely, I don't think we'd ever be friends. Not that all of my current friends are the greatest people, but some are, and that's life, you can't have it all. I have the bestest boyfriend, it would be unfair to have all of the bestest friends as well. :P

That is all.

Is it time to go back yet?

2009-03-28T20:13:00.002Z

Why is it you never really know how much you will miss something until you are away from it. Last time it was holidays, it was just as bad but time has a habit of making one forget that. It isn't as if University is without it's problem, stress and moments of boredom but here still doesn't compare. I had become kind of complacent about Uni and all of the things there, getting a little bored of the monotony that life at Uni has begun to become. It seems to be a lot about drinking and not a lot else but that is changeable and to be honest I don't care about those things. It is mostly the people, or should I say person that makes being away from Uni seem so dull.

Though, as I said Uni isn't without it's problems too. Mainly to do with a particular person. I know that me keeping something from them is causing them upset but it is so much more complicated than they could ever know without me explaining. It isn't that I don't trust him. I also don't entirely not want them to know but it is so hard for me to admit this weakness. I guess part of me does think they might think worse of me although I know it is unlikely. I would really like for him to understand though because I don't want to be the cause of any of his worries. I would like to be able to tell him or to be living without the thing I am unwilling to share but for the time being neither seems possible. I plan to try and resolve it one way or another but for the moment, I just want cuddles.

Where is it all going . . .

2009-01-29T19:31:00.003Z

Have you ever sat and wondered that? I haven't not really because when I try and think I have no real clue so unless I'm inventing wonderful make believe future scenarios I try not to think too much about where everything is heading as I have no clue. Currently with no lessons to fill my time, Uni is seeming a little bit pointless, it's still awesome and I wouldn't be away from it but there is no reason to be here, no work to be done and it's just waiting. An endless cycle of drinking, being lazy and waiting for something to happen. I love it still but with nothing useful to do and nothing to work for it can leave me feeling quite lost. This also appears to be creeping over to other area's of my life. Boredom leads to a search for amusement and fun which in turn often leads to alot of alcohol being consumed. This is both fun and quite bad for various reasons. Firstly it hurts when I fall over and I have many bruises, secondly I am quite sure I have aquired a slightly negative reputation for always being drunk (just cos I'm a lightweight) and thirdly I often do pointless, silly things that lead to very little enjoyment and awful lot more regret. But still it happens, still the alcohol is drunk, just to cover the boredom and mask the insecurities. I do think perhaps I should stop for a bit, make my head a bit clearer as there are things I feel I need to give some proper thought to when I'm sober and awake. Trouble is I already gave thought to it and I've still no answers. I am the way I am, I don't know if I can change. Part of me wants to but part of me thinks that would be cutting down on alot of oppertunities for fun and living life to the full but I do love him so, maybe I should change my opinion of what's fun and what's important, the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone, but that is all that seems to happen . . .

Aren't I too young to have decisions and be goverened by rules and expectations, where has all the fun gone?

Just because I like to write

2009-01-04T18:04:00.000Z

I hide away in this lonely place,
sounds echo through from other rooms but they cannot lighten my mood.
My music plays on random,
songs full of memories strike through my soul.
Emotions from the head pass,
emotions from the heart,
felt deeper, down in the soul, last a lifetime.
The light from my eyes has gone out,
an empty hole resides there instead
empty but for the sadness
My heart is heavy,
my tired body struggles to drag it around
time heals wounds, but you can never forget
when life gets to you, there they are again
ready and waiting
to kick you when you'e down.

I feel the need

2008-12-28T17:32:00.003Z

Sometimes something makes you think alot, and you just feel the need to respond, and I'm not quite sure where this will go and if it should be here, but msn conversation boxes are too small to write this all there. I feel a little bit bad I guess. Because of what I was allowed to read, to look into someone else's thoughts can be very revealing and also made me think alot about myself and why I did some things/what I really thought.

I knew I wanted him, somewhere inside me, but I also was scared of the uncertainty of that where as I had someone, and they were already mine, I also happened to love them so it was very difficult to work out quite what I wanted. To start with I just realised I had feelings for him but it wasn't until I started thinking that I wasn't happy with what I already had that something happened. The fact it felt so right meant my heart took over rather than my head and things didn't happen in the way I would have chosen them to, had I been able to step out and think properly about it all and decide, knowing what I know now. I was also so entangled in my own confusing thoughts that I didn't give much thought to how he may have been feeling. Though if you ask Sophie, you'd find out that I do think a bit, its just I can be a rather confused person, and I tend to change my mind sooo much about everything just because I doubt easily, because I'm scared about something or other.

Once it was over with the over, at first, because I was scared of it being over, and because I thought I would miss the good times, and having some one who cared about me like that, and I loved him still, so I didn't want to give up on that I guess, and for a very short time I thought the ex was who I wanted more, hence any confusion that may have been caused. I didn't know what I wanted either. When you're in a close place with someone, even if it isn't right and you really want someone else, it can be scary to leave that place and sometimes that means you think you don't want to. But the necessary blow from the ex made me come to my senses and allowed me to move on, something that I actually wanted to do, just didn't know, and was scared to do/thought I wouldn't be able to. Maybe I did need more time at some points, definately at others, but I guess it was good to know that it was what he still wanted. I guess it helped in the long run. Now I know what I want, although memories always sometimes cause doubt but I know really that this is right, and this is better for me. This is what was supposed to happen, just maybe not the way it did.

2008 and 2009

2008-12-28T16:21:00.002Z

Well it's that time of year again when we decide we should look back to the years that's been and forward to the one that is to come. So starting with 2008, some things I have learnt -

You can make all the plans in the world but sometimes things will just happen the way they want to.
If you're going to try and have intimate relations whilst out somewhere with wood, take cushions.
I can do my own washing, although it is inevitable that something will end up smaller than it was to start with.
Things, and people, can change so much in such a short amount of time
Trust your inuition, it is probably right.
Leaving Uni work to the last minute, it is not a good idea, especially when it involves making a short film
Making friends is a lot easier when drinking has occurred
No matter how against drinking lots of alcohol you are before going to Uni, you will still end up drunk a lot of the time
Things happen that you will regret
Karma does (probably) exist.

Well that be just a few things, I'm sure there is so much more I have learnt and just don't remember having done so this year now. So much has happened and changed this past year. I have really had three completely different stages of this year when I have been with different guys and despite the upset I wouldn't change the majority of it all, it was so much fun but now having gone to Uni I am so different but still think there is more needed to change until I am completely happy with myself. So onto next year and some resolutions -

1) Get healthier/fitter
2) Try not to get drunk every single night and do some work, get sleep instead
3) Also try not to get banned from the SU again this year
4) Work harder
5) Go to more of the society stuff and make more/closer friends
6) Learn to trust people more and be less easily jealous
7) Get better at dancing
8) Get more confident
9) Sort some stuffs out
10) Get a job
11) Learn to cook/be tidier and stuffs

There are probably more, I'm not sure at the moment, and having looked at last years, some things will also be a resolution and may never completely be achieved but we can give it ago and aslong as I keep trying that's what matters, I guess, maybe anyway. But anyways enough about me (even though this is my blog and all :P) I hope you all had a great Christmas and I hope you all have a brilliant new year and that 2009, for all of us, is the best year yet. :)

Let's just see what happens. . .

2008-12-28T13:13:00.002Z

As the title suggests I've not really an idea of what I am going to say in this post. I feel the need to write but I am not sure quite what. Having recently discovered that at least one ex knows the whereabouts of this blog and knowing that the other and the current bf are aware of its existence also makes me much more cautious as to what to write not because I have things I want to necessarily hide but just things it would maybe best not for me to say just yet or at all on a blog. Never the less this place has always been my outlet for those things I just couldn't say to anyone directly and its use can be very beneficial. I think as my brain is hungover, possibly in fact still a little drunk, and in a kind of random rambling mood that is what I shall do. I think I am happy right now but I do not know. I've had sad thoughts over the holidays because at Uni it is easy to forget the past, yet here there are so many things laced with memories that my thoughts tend to wander to the past more. It's not that I want to be back there, well o.k I would love to go back for a week but that is all, I am different, and as enjoyable as the past was, I am happier to be where I am now. Although the main thing that makes me slightly unhappy is the way in which I have got to where I am now. If only we could change the past.

But anyways, to the future and now. As I said I do believe I am happy yet I am also apprehensive. Both times I have got really close to someone, it has ended in misery. The second, for a lot less time, but the first time, it was a very long time before I managed to really get over it despite it being my own doing, and what I knew was the right thing to happen. Now the main reason I am most apprehensive about allowing such a closeness to happen (tho it is very much already underway) is that this time seems much more like the first than the last one. The most recent relationship I was in, I never thought would last forever, to start with I didn't see it lasting the summer although it did and it was awesome and I did end up loving him but I still knew even then it would end. I was also (apart from maybe a month in the summer) never really as comfortable around him or able to be completely myself, I still felt like an outsider. With M and now E, I felt so comfortable with them straight away, and completely able to be myself and not care. With S it wasn't like that. With M, I thought it would last forever, maybe I was a lot more naive then, but I loved him so much and it seemed like he was my soul mate. Things change however and now this is something I fear - People and situations changing (which is, really, inevitable) because that often spells the end. I guess what I'm trying to get at here, is the fact I see so many similarities between the beginning of my relationship with M and E and between M and E themselves and as I know how the one with M ended and how long it took me to get over that, that I'm scared to allow myself to get as close again especially not now but I tend not to be able to stop myself. Another thing I wish I had the ability to stop however is my insecurity and jealousy. I guess I judge people by how I am, which means I don't find it particularly easy to trust people and also I don't think I am that great so don't see why anyone wouldn't rather choose someone else over me. I think perhaps I should think about these things when I make my new years resolutions.

And I thought it couldn't get any worse.

2008-11-20T21:33:00.002Z

The ex has a new girlfriend. This was a huge blow to me, especially being so soon. Not just because it means he's moved on but also because I hadn't given up hope of being able to convinve him when we were both back home in reality to forgive me and take me back but it seems he hadn't been exactly fully truthful with me before we broke up and he doesn't love me anymore. That pretty much sucks and is one of the worse feelings you can possibly imagine. Now I know what it felt like to be M, the guy I fell out of love with. It seems what goes around really does come back around. Now when I first found out he no longer loved me I was the closest to suicidal I've ever been. I hadn't been ready to move on, to let go of the hope, but it was the past I wanted, to relive what had happened before. The awesome summer. I don't think it would have ever been the same - maybe it would but it seems unlikely, Uni changes people so much but still, I wasn't ready to let go. I now have to as there is no chance I can make him love me if he doesn't. That's pretty hard to take, but I guess the fact he has a new gf even though that hurts like hell it is going to help to encourage me to move on quicker. Not that, that is easy. I was in a pretty bad state for a few days and still have my moments. Even though it was over before, it felt like it happened all over again when I read the text that ended my world momentarily. It seems so weird now as everything has changed so dramatically so quickly. I wonder often whether if I hadn't have f*cked it up we would still be together but I then think even if we had have been it would have been a lie. His heart clearly wasn't in it anymore anyway. What happened did happen for a reason because it needed to end, for him perhaps more than for me at this time but int he future it will come to have been necessary for both. That's how life works, I believe everything happens for a reason and I have most definately grown stronger and will never cheat again. I think I said that before but then I had a minor digression but Im slowly heading back towards becoming a better person. I hope. Now I have a new outlook. Life is for living and that is what I am trying to do. I also have much wider hopes and ambitions which perhaps I'd lost sight of because I was in love. I don't plan to allow myself to get too deep feelings for anyone too soon or to commit myself to becoming just one half of a whole again. Not until I've worked out who I am, what I want, and that there is a whole person in me. Not just a half that needs another to live or be happy. It might be tough, and I'm sure I'll have my weak moments when I all I want is him back or another in his place but I hope I can move on, and acheive what I want to and above all, stay as strong as I need to be and I can.

Lost

2008-11-04T15:42:00.002Z

I think it is safe to say I am feeling pretty low right now and the worst part? It's basically all my own fault. I was a bitch. I cheated on the person who was my boyfriend at the time. I wish I hadn't. I'm not generally a bitch, I didn't do it to hurt him, I didn't think and I really really wish I could take it back, change it and make everything ok. It hurts me to think I may have caused him any pain. He is too good a person to deserve that.

The result of it (as obviousely I had to tell him and consequently end up single) was something I guess I thought had to happen anyway as our relationship was anything but perfect. Uni really is a bitch of a situation. Anything you thought before, any plans you had, all gone and replaced with new thoughts and plans and ideas. I thought it could work, knew it would be hard but possible and even though technically it could have done it didn't feel right, it didn't feel like it was working. I guess (before I went and f*cked it up) we were both partly to blame for this, we just weren't talking much and it felt like we were letting ourselves drift apart because of the fact we had begin to live such seperate lives and couldn't spend that much time together due to the distance we now are apart and the fact we only really have weekends free. So I knew I guess in my heart that we would end up apart sooner or later but I didn't want it to be like this because even though we talked quite normally yesterday I still expect he dislikes me to some extent and I don't know if a close friendship between us is going to be possible but I hope it is because I need him. I need him to still love me because I still love him so much. I'm definately going to need a lot of time to get over him as I realised last night when out. All songs in this world seem to be about love and relationships in some way or just be songs that remind me of him which meant after the initial fake high I hit a low and just started crying in the middle of the dance floor. I felt this before with the last ex, who I also knew I had to part with however much I didn't want to but the feeling never gets any easier. It definately takes time, so much time sometimes. At the moment I just feel a bit lost having to adjust to everything. Just like before I've hidden all reminders, I will wear the neclace he bought me again, I will display the pictures of us, but not right now. Maybe that's not the right way to go about it, hiding away but it is the easiest. To forget, pretend.

My feelings of misery weren't really helped last night as I was rather drunk and managed to cause myself pain which in turn caused me to have panic attacks. I don't think that was helped by the mixture of all the other feelings inside me because even before the actual panic attacks I had been feeling anxious about life now, and the lonliness of it. It's not that there aren't other people that are there for me but sometimes all the people, all the attention and all the love in the world can't help you when all you want is one person there for you.

Now, after having had panic attacks, I can see me having others, just because I know now what they are like and they are scary so the fear of having one is probably going to make me atleast anxious. My confidence has also been hugely knocked and everything at the moment seems like a struggle and small things that I hopefully will be able to deal with another time, today feel like huge unbreakable obstacles.

This is not a nice feeling, to keep myself busy trying to substain fake highs but always hitting the lows, however much I do, however much I drink, and feeling as if I'll always feel down, feeling so low.

I miss him, I want so much for him to turn up here and just hold me. But now, that just wont happen.

Are some things too hard to understand?

2008-10-25T21:51:00.003+01:00

Boys just don't get somethings do they. I'm not saying we females are perfect, I'm sure there are many a thing we don't get about guys either. But, the fact I may well want a happy non-hungover boyfriend on my birthday is surely not that hard to understand. I have to say if he turns up on my birthday in a moody state due to having got drunk the night before and isn't up for drinking and partying in the evening I will be rather annoyed. I wouldn't normally mind but my birthday is surely the one day I can demand somethings. If there is one thing that I have learnt about relationships whilst at Uni it is that long distance relationships are hard. There are so many issues and problems. Finding the time and money to visit each other being you would think the hardest but finding the time to talk to each other is actually the hardest even though it needn't be. My boyfriend never likes to be in his room preferring to hang around with friends around the university which is fair enough for the most part. Uni is about having fun and meeting new people aferall but surely if he loves me as much as he has said he does he would sometimes think actually I am going to go sit in my room for a few hours and talk on msn. But when we are talking on msn or on the phone there is hardly any conversation not nearly as much as you would expect from two people in love who hardly see each other. This exact problem was indeed the cause of a short break up just over a week ago yet has anything changed? Can anything change. Can the relationship continue. I just don't know if his heart is really in it anymore. It hurts to think about that.

You have to become someone else to know who you really are.

2008-10-25T16:14:00.003+01:00

I've just hit that point. The moment when I've realised I have alot of work to do. It's been parties, social social social. Fun. I laughed at the work people at other Uni's seemed to be doing but now it has come back to me and I'm feeling pretty swamped right now. I'm not behind as such, no one else has done much more than myself but still, it suddenly all feels a bit more real and frightening.

It took several weeks, two trips home, and a trip to the boyfriend before this phase of my life stopped being an odd dream and became a reality - my real life. Right now. It has also stopped feeling quite so seperate from the outer word. I've gained perspective of the whole picture. I'm not just a student here, life at home is still there, just waiting for me to return. That doesn't however stop this here, being so completely strange, emotional and stressfull. But it's also so much fun. Being thrown so completely out of my comfort zone so suddenly reall takes a lot of getting used to and I lost all sense of me, all sense of real and became someone else. I'm slowly rediscovering who is me. Which doesnt just mean going back to what I was before I started here or becoming a completely new person it's a mix. I'm what I was, I'm what I am, I'm finding what I liked about past me, and what I didn't, what needs to go or be altered to make me better to make me happy, to make me me.

Ronan Keating was right . . .

2008-07-30T18:35:00.003+01:00

. . . Life really is a rollercoaster. I get very confused because of the rate at which my feelings and emotions change. Currently however there are two main things that are causing me problems. The first shall remain breifly mention for now, although there is a chance I may decide to edit it in later. Basically though it involves me being scared by ex will forget me completely when I want desperately to remain his best friend and also the fact that it hurts to think of him introducing his new gf to his parents like he did me, to think of him holding her and telling her he loves her, and worshipping her and adoring her more than anyone and anything in the world like he once did me and like I still in some way, do him. The second has quite a bit to do with the possibility of going to Uni in September. I don't yet know if I am as I'm yet to get my results from my A Levels but for this purpose I am presuming it is most likley. Also I am presuming my current bf will be too. And there lies the issue. Since we got together I've known it would be likely to be short lived and I expect he thought that too. It was an unspoken part of the deal it was just a casual bit of fun, I didn't want anymore especially after having just come out of a year long relationship, that was what I thought anyway. But it seems things never do go to plan. However much I may have tried (and I really have) to stop myself becoming too attached I failed. I think I have started to like him more than I've ever liked most people (I don't know if I'll ever like anyone as much as the ex but the current bf shouldn't take that as an insult or a 'I'd rather still be with the ex' because if that was the case I would be, it is more that it just happens that we have such a strong connection, I think so anyway and I love him so much, in a best friend way, that it would take an awful lot for me to like somewhen more) which although normally would be something I would try and avoid just because close attachment has to much fear of upset if it all goes wrong, in this case is worse because of the inevitable ending in a month or two. Even if he did want to actually stay with me (which considering he's likely to meet lots of posh, cleverer, more attractive girls who all want to get with him is very unlikely anyway) then I can't see it would ever work. Firslty I think he is probably almost as insecure and jealous a person as I am (most likely not as jealous as me as I get small feelings of jealousy even if he just talks to a girl I consider to be of reasonable attractiveness but that is prob more a trust issue and my insecureness) so I think both of us would spend too much time wondering if the other was cheating. Also part of me thinks it would be harder to stay together and not be able to see each other for months and months than to not be together and move on. I definately think in that case there would be the strong temptation on both sides to cheat and I would just see it ending after a while if not before we go. the fact remains though I really don't want it to. I don't know how he feels, sometimes I think he wont want it to either, but othertimes my pessimistic side comes out and I think he problem actually wont care that much and will be over me and with other Uni girls in a week. I guess I wont know unless I ask but if I don't want to bring the topic up until it really has to be spoken about. But it doesn't stop me thinking about it all the time. And crying myself to sleep at the thought of soon not being able to see so many people that are close to me for months if not years. I know it will be over in 3 years, maybe less if I fail or quit but it is still quite a long time and I'm a young girl, its an unwritten law that I should be dramatic.

I'm not really sure why I feel the need to post these thoughts but I do and it seems this is the best place to put them as although it is a public blog the liklihood of anyone I actually know stumbling accross it is low and I guess it might be good to tell the people involved these things I feel but its much too hard to share them with those that could either help or make things so much worse.

I thought things may have changed back but can it really ever be the same?

2008-07-02T21:09:00.002+01:00

Well having just read back the last blog I posted quite a while ago now it seems very strange to think that although some things are different other things don't seem to have changed at all.

I am still with new guy but I haven't forgotten the ex. I now feel slightly closer to the 'new' guy who is no longer very new but I am still not as comfortable with him as I am with a lot of people. I currently can't imagine myself ever being as close to anyone else as I was with the ex. I am now very close friends with the ex again and we seem to have got over the awkward stage and even though there are aspects of him that annoy/dissapoint/upset me he is my best friend. Trouble is because we are now capable of having a laugh like we used to and are close it makes me wonder even more so if I did the right thing. Now I am quite sure that I did at the time but I think there is a part of me at the back of my mind thinking that maybe in the future I'll end up back with him but as time goes by I see this as more and more unlikely. Although also due to aspects of his personality this is mainly due to the fact I feel I have become so close we have crossed some imaginary line that means we can't go back and can't be close than friends and I think I would find being with him very strange indeed. Now this doesn't stop me thinking but I still love him. Don't get me wrong though, I am still very happy with 'new' guy so that doesn't particularly help the situation although I think our relationship is inevitably going to be short lived because we will soon both be at Uni's far from each other. So for now I think I'm going to go with the flow so to speak and see what happens/if what I truly want ever becomes clearer.

This feels a bit like confessions.

2008-02-14T20:38:00.005Z

I think I'm OK with writing this as I don't think either of the people mostly involved will read this and I think it would be OK if they did.

There's different types of love, the one where you feel so comfortable with someone even if you hardly know them and can't imagine not being with them and there's the crush type where you go all giggly and run away whenever they're about.

The trouble with the first type - it either ends in a lifelong relationship or heartache. In this case it's the second. It isn't either of our faults though, but I was the one to utter those dreaded words 'perhaps we should just be friends'. We both knew it was going to happen though, and he understood the reasons, at least I hope he did and wasn't just saying it. Love can be amazing, especially this type, the one where they're not your normal type, or you can't describe why you love them so much but the problem comes when that feeling, that thing that you can't describe or pinpoint goes, and you're left with nothing. I thought after everything, there would still be a close unbreakable bond but there doesn't seem to be, perhaps it will reappear over time but at the moment I feel I've lost him forever. I long for that feeling, that person I loved before but there doesn't seem any chance that will come back.

There's also another guy. Something that means my emotions are in a complete muddle and I have no idea what I really feel or think, well I know what feel at the moment but I've no idea if it will last. Because for this guy, it's the second type of 'love'. The love that is more a crush. Now sometimes these crushes turn into something and sometimes they don't but there is no way of knowing beforehand. I don't feel totally comfortable around him, in fact I'm constantly aware of what I say and do and think it is only a matter of time before I do or say something that makes him think why do I like her? I considered this guy to be out of my league, to be the sort of guy you always think 'would be cool to f*** him' but never think there's a chance of it actually happening so the fact this guy likes me is confusing. This guy isn't currently my boyfriend, but I'd also be lying if I said we were purely friends and that is confusing in itself. I know from what I have just said that you're probably thinking this guy is why I broke up with the previous guy. But it's not. That was always going to happen, we knew it, I knew it wayyy before I liked this new guy.

Actually if I'm being totally honest there's more to add here. Me and the last guy went on a break, and that was because I liked someone else who isn't the newest guy. I foolishly thought that all I needed or wanted was a break where I could get with that guy for a bit, get it out of my system, have some single time, then could go back to him and it would be back like it was at the beginning. I'd fall back in love with him, the spark would return. I was wrong. Whilst on the extremely short lasting break, I enquired about the other guy but found that he wasn't interested. Now I think now this was just a 'he's so different to the current guy I want him' kind of a crush but at the time I didn't realise but when I found he wasn't interested I went back to the original guy. I know that was the worse thing to do, but I was lonely, and I had exams and was stressed and needed one of his hugs that made me feel like everything was alright. So we ended up back together but it wasn't the same, I think we both knew really that it wouldn't last for long, we were being 'coupley' because we had to be, but we saw hardly any of each other outside of college but I thought perhaps it would work out, I still hoped it could go back to how it was.

Then comes along the new guy. He isn't the reason I broke up with the other one though. Knowing that he was there for me after was purely the encouragement and confidence I needed to break off my, over a year lasting, relationship that I had once loved so much. I had known, deep in my heart, at the back of my mind, for many many months, that things had changed that we were too different for it to last much longer but I'm human I didn't want to end up alone and I kept remembering the past and thinking about how good it had been and trying to think about the current state of affairs. Occasionally during that time it did seem like it was returning to the good times, but towards the end of the relationship it was clear those times had been lost forever. However strongly I had once loved him, however much I still did and however how much I knew he loved me, I knew, we both knew, that it was pointless to continue. Now, it seems that we have so little in common, are so different in every aspect that without a relationship forcing us together we can't even be close friends.

I keep seeing things he bought me, things I bought when with him, things that just remind me of him for some small reason and it makes me sad, makes me feel empty, I feel something like minor grieving for that past feeling (why didn't I realise how good it was at the time, I don't think I made the most of it), makes me wonder if I've done the right thing. I know, I think that I have, but all the time I can remember the good times I will long to be back there. I've been tempted a few times already to ask him if he'll have my back but I know I shouldn't, I can't. I took the photo of us two together down today, I hadn't been able to do so before, that's stupid I know. Besides, there's the new guy, although I've no idea where that will go or how long anything will last. I hardly know him really, and I'm still so nervous and shy around him, he may realise once he knows the real me he no longer likes me but that might just be my negative side coming out. Having ended with the other guy so little time ago (although it seems like ages) I don't know if I can be with this new guy, I don't know how it will affect the ex. I'm not sure I've totally adjusted to being apart from him yet, it's so weird being in that 'place' with someone who isn't him. New guy says things, does things that remind me of the ex and I feel guilty and sad. Also if/when whatever ends with new guy and I end up alone again, who knows whether I'll long to be back with the other guy or whether I'll know then for sure, that I did do the right thing. But for now, I think I just need time to adjust, time to let go of, but not to forget the good times.

2007 and 2008

2008-01-01T16:48:00.000Z

Well firstly lets have a little recap or analysis of last year - 2007. It was rather eventful, what with my 18th birthday, learning to drive, exams and a death. I look back and it seems to all have rushed by and most of the events blur into one, a few things such as my 18th birhtday party and the summer of Potterness do stand out however and they were great but overall there are many things that happened last year that I perhaps would have liked to have gone differently and a few things seemed less exciting as I imagined they would be. I seem to have grown up, not necessarily in terms of my actual maturity as I've always been quite mature in some ways but I am now 18, can drive, and have been out into the 'adult world' of clubbing and pubs on friday nights. There has been a lot of doubts and confuzzlement over some things though and them, along with some other issues I would like to sort out this year. My actual new years eve yesterday wasn't that great but hopefully that won't be an indicator of what is to come this year, that was just the beginning of a fun packed year.

In 2008 I also want to just enjoy myself, well as much as I can in between revision and exams and coursework and choosing a Uni which will all be stressfull I'm sure. I want to go to more gigs (already got one to see the Spice Girls planned) go out clubbing, work hard when necessary, sort some stuff out and become more independant and happy within myself.

Wel that's what I want to happen, whether it will or whether I'll be saying similar things this time next year I don't know lol but Happy New Year to everyone and I hope, whether 2007 was good for you or not, that 2008 is better.

Well it’s nearly christmas already . . .

2007-12-19T18:17:00.000Z

... but I'm not feeling very christmassy, due to recent events I'm not very excited today despite having finished college until after new year. I'm glad to be on holiday now but I know alot of it will be spent doing some revising. I also think christmas itself will turn out to be the same let down it normally is. There is such a build up and then the day itself is usually rather quiet, for me anyhow. Opening presents and watching the many films on may provide myself with some amusement but it is usually the day after that is more enjoyable because it is when my family all meet up but I am yet to learn if that will be happening.

There's always new years eve to look forward to I suppose if that is, I'm looking forward to watching people get totally wasted. The festivites may surprise me and it could turn out to be fun, I hope so, there are other parties/ events going on this week so should give me something to do and provide ample oppertunity to have a laugh, but I am currently in one of my states of negativity. It'll pass I'm sure, somewhen.

On a lighter note, I have done a lot of my christmas shopping and am quite pleased with what I have bought so far. :)

On my party and being 18

2007-11-18T20:57:00.000Z

Now, being 18, I can look back and think about how I've changed. Although my voice may still be quiet (I can't help that, thats who I am) but I have got so much more confident and do speak alot more now. I am just alot more confident and happy in myself anyway. I've realised it doesn't matter that people will try and laugh at me or annoy me or put me down because if I don't care about them I don't care what they think. If I'm having a good time and happy then whatever anyone else thinks generally doesn't mean a thing. It's those who are closest to me whose opinions of me I value.

I've also realised that I so made the right decision to go to a college where few of my school friends were going as I've made some lovely awesome amazing friends and I'm so much happier now.

The party I had was awesome, thanks to my friends and family who are all rather cool. Some people I think tried to spoil it but that backfired on them if that is what they were trying to do because I actually don't care about them anymore as I have moved on and got myself some lovely friends. College is cool. lol

I'm holding on to the cracks in our foundations

2007-11-02T10:34:00.000Z

As well as liking the song I thought that line was a rather good one to sum up some stuff at the moment. There's some people I'm beginning not to like as much as I did which is a problem. I kind of long for some new friends or just to spend some time with some different people just for the change. I've been feeling a bit like my life was monotanous and I although in general terms I like normality I often crave something new, new excitement. Everyday at college I've been doing the same things in my breaks, hanging around with the same people. Now these people are nice enough, they've done nothing but been friendly and welcoming and I can't thank them enough for that as I needed them to save me from total boredom and lonliness.

Back then I did have some friends (I'd just gone to college) but I was going off them. I seem to have found myself back in that same situation. Not because I don't like my current friends a such but because I don't feel I have asd much in common with them and don't find the same things funny. Sometimes I do, but I just want to explore other situations or whatever just for some variation. I think perhaps I've always been like this, can be totally happy hanging around with people and then all of a sudden I want something different. It's not really them, I guess my opinions and interests change. Perhaps I will come ot a time where I know what I do like and will have definate fixed interests but at the moment they change often.

Anyway enough of my, for want of a better word, ranting. I recently passed my driving test (failed first time mainly through nerves) but am rather glad I've now passed and don't have to worry about my driving lessons anymore. Ity gives me slightly more freetime which is good considering the amount of work I have at the moment. But unlike before when I last blogged I am liking my courses again, on the whole but they are alot of work and effort. I also have a lot of deadlines and UCAS stuff coming up - oh joy!

Halloween was fun, though I didn't actually take my black rose partly because I forgot and because I was collecting money for charity in a town so it wasn't entirely practical. I did have my corpse bride costume on though which provided much amusement. I wore a scaled down version of what I could have worn (more customisation of clothes I had) just because of what I was doing but if I decide to use this costume for film conventions I might wear a proper dress instead. I do absolutely love my black veil and eye make-up though, which perhaps is a bit worrying lol. I'm quite tempted to turn goth just so I can have my eyes like I did lol.

I don't really know what else to say, I'm sure there's stuff I was going to say, oh yeah fireworks tomorow should be fun, then got my birthday coming up. Yay partyyyy lol.

Spoke too soon?

2007-09-30T12:48:00.000+01:00

Well back to college. It's not that great. Photography is a lot of work and I am the only proper second year in my class and it isn't even that interesting but there's nothing else to change it to and I need to do 2 AS's to bring up my UCAS points. Talking of UCAS points I have started visiting Universities on the their open days, Royal Holloway and Reading yesterday. Can't say I was too impressed with Reading as the subject I wanted to do was on a smaller campus away from the main one. Royal Holloway was better, and it would be soooo cool to stay in the castle but I'm not sure the subject is quite right and I'm not sure I'll get in. However I still have about five more to visit in the next few weeks so will have to wait and see what I think of them, not that I really understand how I am supposed to be applying anyway as it is online yet we are meant to hand them into college :-S. I guess I'll find out somewhen lol. Back to the subject of college, Film Studies the other exciting subject I decided to take up this year is actually just pretty much the same as Media Studies which isn't greatly exciting although it does give me a rather big advantage at the moment so I shan't complain about that too much. The subjects I am carrying on from last year are fine I guess. The only really enjoyable stuff going on at college at the moment is the prodution that I hope to get involved in doing back stage stuff perhaps as assistant director or stage manager, and also the college magazine which we are currently producing a Halloween issue of, which means I've written a short spooky story.

On other news, I went to a drama class which is rather good me thinks, well I enjoy it anyway, needed some outlet for my overly dramatic side ;P

I don't actually have anything else overly interesting to say as one 'event' I wrote about in my offline diary this week probably shouldn't be shared on here, I am still without a dress or mask for my 18th birhtday masked ball theme party though, but I'll keep looking, I'm afraid I'm a bit fussy, we also have alot of other stuff to buy for it but it isn't until November so not panicking... just yet anyway. Ooooh one last note to end this probably rather dull blog with the fact I've found out about a Harry Potter conference going on next year, and I will finally be old enough to go! Yay! :)

ps. Looking forward to Halloween, hoping to make/find a Corpse Bride costume so I can buy a black rose I saw in a fancy dress shop the other day.

'Is that you real hair?'

2007-09-04T11:17:00.000+01:00

Were the words Dominic Monaghan said to me as he signed a photo of himself as Merry in Lord of the rings (also he is Charlie in Lost if you're still unsure who he is). I don't have really amazing hair that he couldn't believe was mine, nor do I have awful hair that he was mocking. I was indeed wearing a wig. I hasten to add as part of a costume rather than just for the fun of it although it was quite fun. I was at the London Film and Comic Convention at Earls Court dressed as Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter. Despite my first reservations about changing into my costume because of the lack of other costumers about at that time and because I was there with my boyfriend and he is one of the few people that I care what he thinks of me, I had a rather good time. Various people asked me questions about the costume, told me it was good and took photos, I have to admit to rather liking the attention. For a once painfully shy and quiet person I was rather outgoing. I met 4 more Potter guests (Colin Creevey - looks rather different now lol, 1st Katie Bell, and Seamus Finnigan) got their autographs, had my photo taken with them and chatted to them. Devon, who plays Seamus, was much friendlier than I'd thought he would be and he is also much shorter than I thought he was lol.

As well as getting the autographs, I got to have my photo taken with the flying Ford Anglia car used in the Potter films, I looked at some gorgeous dresses and cloaks and lots of random cool things, although I settled on only buying some new shiny smaller pictures of Harry Potter, Lord of the rings, Pirates of the Caribbean, Doctor Who, Finding Neverland and Robin Hood to go in my shiny kind of newly decorated room. Unfortunately I couldn't find any Pride and Prejudice posters not that I had much money left to have bought one with had I found one.
I also went to the Harry potter talk, and even got up and asked a question, not that they had very good answers to it but I didn't really expect them to.

After the excitement and adventure of Sunday, I am now preparing for going back to college. As I have said before I'm looking forward to it, but it does seem to have crept up on me rather quickly, and there's things I wanted to do but haven't and what I have done as gone by in such a blur that I don't think I enjoyed it all as much as I could have done. I don't really feel relaxed or re cooperated after having a break from college work and I feel summer has kind of passed me by. Having said that, when I think back, I have actually done quite a lot and had a good time. I think I'll spend the next few days relaxing and then perhaps weather depending, I'll do some of the things I haven't yet done at the weekend somewhen.

It's only when you leave your normal surroundings that you realise how much you actually like the normal things

2007-08-22T12:01:00.000+01:00

As nice as it is to get away from home for awhile and spend time with different people it does make you realise that you actually do like all the comfort of normality, of being able to do what I want, to watch what I want and relax when I want rather than being controlled by what others are doing. But I did have a good week, despite my rather sore throat (which I've now found out is a throat infection) and it is rather calming and inspiring to be able to sit on the rocks watching the sea crashing against them and to go exploring in caves. I've realised I rather like water, waterfalls, streams, waves I don't know what it is really about it, I just love water, it can be calm, but it can also be inspiring and show us our insignificance and the power of the sea. Whilst away, I also visited the Eden Project, which had a rather impressive waterfall which went into a stream which I thought was rather cool.

Last week I also received my AS results. My ICT result was as I expected. My media was kind of although I'd liked to have done better, and my English was disappointing but I was ill for my exams and struggled with them so it wasn't totally unexpected. I think I should do better in year 2 as the exams are more suited to me and I plan to work very hard on my coursework and other work and keep having it re-marked and get as much help as I can if I do find I'm struggling with something so I can do really well and get the required grades to go on to University.

Talking of University I have to start deciding where to go and what to do and write my personal statement and apply. I have a list of about 7 Uni's, all to do some sort of Film studies/production course with either Creative writing or Journalism, which I hope to visit and then narrow my list down to the maximum of 5 I can apply to.

I'm actually looking forward to going back to college, I have done some college work in the holidays and plan to do some more to make sure I stay ahead as I know, hopefully, doing 2 A levels (English and Media) and 2 new AS's (Photography and Film Studies) that I'll have quite a bit of work to do. I want to do well and I think I will enjoy my new subjects but I also know half way through the year, or when it gets nearer to exam time I'll change my mind about enjoying and wanting to be at college.

Summer holidays

2007-07-29T12:38:00.000+01:00

I've been to see Potter at the cinema again but I've not really done a lot else. The last decorating touches have been done to my room although I'm sure I'll still add bits here and there for a while. I'm planning a trip of Potter filming sites somewhen in the hols and I have my Driving theory test - eeek - but apart from that not much else planned. Except that is, from my mini holiday to Cornwall which I am rather looking forward to. Not only does it mean a break from my house, the boredom, my parents and all the regular stuff it also means visiting places I haven't before, nicer surroundings and well I don't get to go on holiday with my 'rents so I'm rather glad of the chance to go away somehow. Now when I get asked 'so where are you going on your holidays this year' I have an answer and don't have to pretend I'm o.k with not going anywhere.

My Deathly Hallows thoughts - warning contains huge spoilers

2007-07-28T12:23:00.000+01:00

Well I have read the book, and had time to think over what I read, and re-read certain sections but do plan a total re-read soon as I am for one confused about certain things, and for two at a loss of what to do without having some HP to read. I finished the book with many confused feelings, I expected so much and was disappointed at how little we found out really, but that doesn't mean I didn't enjoy the book or think it was good because it was brilliant, and oh how I cried. I still can't believe really that I have read the last ever Potter book so that isn't really why I cried (that will hit me later on I'm sure lol) but oh gosh Harry's 'death' was sooooooo emotional and sad but wonderfully written. Something in me thought no he can't really be about to die but I'd been starting to think he would have to sacrifice himself and I could see no way out once we were told he was a horcrux. I cried so much, not just few tears at the corner of my eyes proper full blown crying. The way J K included the information about his trips to Hagrid's hut just made me think about how final this book was, a sum up of all the amazing times I've had reading about the things Harry's done and now it would be over which as well as the fact Harry the character was about to face his death, so was the book which meant double the sadness. When Harry talked to Neville and didn't want to speak to Ginny was just so, awww and :( but really showed the love Harry felt for these people and what he was willing to do to ensure all of their safety. As to the other deaths, Hedwig got me, and Dobby but the end deaths in the battle didn't, partly because how quickly it was dealt with and because at that point I was expecting deaths, and bigger characters to what we did see so it was almost, an I do feel bad for saying this, but it was almost a relief that only those characters that died did. However when Lupin talked about not seeing his son that did get me lol. This book had so much action and the fact we saw Voldermort kill in the very first chapter and then more deaths straight away, then they were safe and then they weren't, all the time there was that fear of LV turning up or catching them which meant I couldn't put the book down I was so involved and wanted to know what would happen next.
There were some very funny moments though, even in the middle of so much grief and danger. Loved the Harry/Ginny stuff at The Burrow and the Hermione/Ron stuff, shame we didn't really get to see Tonks and Lupin together although we knew they were. Aside from deaths, other things that made me cry were - Hermione and her parents, that was so moving and showed just how talented a witch she is. The epilogue was also moving, but in a happy, wonderful way. I was just so pleased to see them all happy like that after everything that has happened to them all.

Some 'negative' things - a few things didn't seem to add up but that might be because I need to read it more carefully again or something. Also there was a lot of Dumbledore in this book, too much perhaps, though it was necessary and it was done well but I'd just have personally liked to have seen more of some other characters instead.

Last thing (for know anyhow) which well I feel it was probably necessary to show us Harry's feelings towards Snape but I'm a bit 'confused' about the Albus Severus thing because o.k he was very brave and he loved Lily but he wasn't a good person. He wouldn't have done any of those brave things if it hadn't been for Lily, and they say you can't help who you fall in love with but you can help what you do in your life and Snape CHOSE to become a death eater, wasn't it his own fault that Lily did get killed because he told LV about the prophecy. Forgive me if I've missed something or misunderstood but some people seem to think Snape redeemed himself and is good because he was on Dumbledore's side. But really he wasn't he was on his own side, just doing what Dumbledore wanted because he loved Lily. Having said that, his cruelness to Harry could have been seen as him just 'acting' so that LV wouldn't be able to realise Snape was a spy but, there is another but too many infact which makes me very confused lol, that Snape could stop LV reading his mind, why the need to act horrible because surely if LV could read his mind then he'd be able to see he was a spy anyway. O.k so perhaps the fact he had Lily's eyes made Snape angry or upset or guilty when looking into them but surely for Lily's sake he should have been kind or at least not so cruel. And why be cruel to Neville and Hermione? The only thing I can conclude from that is that he is not a nice man, he is bitter perhaps from his childhood but I think even then (he spent time with future Death Eaters) he wasn't nice and was very interested in the Dark Arts. His want to help Harry get rid of LV was really only because he killed Lily not because Snape disagreed with LV's beliefs or actions.

Anyone with any thoughts/opinions feel free to leave a comment. :)

My Deathly Hallows experience (no spoilers but will be in next blog, above)

2007-07-23T19:15:00.000+01:00

So, the 20th came, whether I was ready for it to or not. I awoke still unsure where to go to get my book from that night but eventually decided about lunchtime that a local store would be more convenient and probably just as good. As it happens I don't know, not having been to any others, the London ones would I'm sure have provided me with much more theorising opportunities before the book was released and the overall experience and build up to the book may have been better but I'm sure I would have been waiting around, and to get the book much longer and it wasn't possible to get there early enough. In terms of decoration and the quiz that happened the event I went to itself was good, I'd have liked to have been picked for the quiz though, as I knew a lot of the answers and I felt it could have been better organised. It also annoyed me that some, perhaps most seemed not to take the Potter world as seriously, I'd have liked to have had company of the sort of people who visit the forums and have been discussing what will happen furiously but oh well. I did wear my Luna Lovegood costume although not it fully for all of the time as when I arrived in the evening, there were only 5 or 6 girls in front of me, none in proper costumes, and although several more costumers turned up later on, as well as many many more people there were no really good complete canon costumes which was a little disappointing. When I got my book, about 15 minutes after midnight I quickly made my way across the busy town I was in, in my robes, holding a wand and the book which I'm sure provided amusement for the drunk passers by. I avoided most spoilers by avoiding both the Internet and T.v/radio mostly as well as all newspapers and magazines I also took my mp3 player to the queue party which I turned up loud when people who I thought may shout things walked by and once it was midnight. I did still see and hear some though, some I now know to be false, others true partly and completely however whether the people who said them were aware what they were saying would turn out to be true I don't know, but for the most part I doubt it.

Once home, I began to read straight away. I read only 2 chapters however before stopping and instead writing my thoughts on what I had just read, trying to guess what it meant and what may happen, intending to do this often, and take my time to read the book. Saturday came, I read some more and then visited my family, some of which already knew the answers from the T.V. I soon realised I would have to finish the book quickly if I was to avoid being spoilt before I reached the end if I wanted to be able to leave the house or watch T.V and so Sunday came and I read almost continuously until I was almost at the end of the main part of the book. Now, with just a page left, which I am trying to delay reading but the temptation to find out what she changed the last word to threatening to cause me to finish the book completely so soon. I think I rushed the reading rather quickly, almost skim reading at parts near the end in my desperation to discover the answers. I regret this to a point but it means I am able to re-read it without the feeling of having already read it as there is much I missed and so much to get my head around. I still don't want to finish the book however, even if there is still much to be discussed on forums and the fandom will continue it is an end of something. To have the possibility of not having any more Potter to read... ever. I know she may write more in the distant future or perhaps just an encyclopedia but that is so unsure at the moment. The world I have come to love; to live, will be over. No more adventures will they participate in, no more fun shall they have. But I know it must end, all good things must come to an end so they say but still I do not read that... last page.

6 days... my Deathly Hallows theories (contains HP spoilers)

2007-07-14T20:42:00.000+01:00

So the last Harry Potter book comes out in 6 days and many answers will be revealed, and not surprisingly there is much speculation about what will happen. I have become increasingly concerned that everything seems to point to Harry sacrificing himself in some heroic way for the cause but I'm not sure I want that to happen, unless it means he goes beyond the veil and gets to be reunited with his parents (which would be interesting, as in the first book there is the Mirror of Erised which shows his hearts desire of being with his parents, meaning it would be a nice ending, and a good reference back to the first book and the last challenge in the 'obstacle' course to get the Philosopher's Stone). If that was to happen, however it might also be nice for Ginny to jump in after him so they can still be together, unless she will wait to be reunited when she's older, although then wouldn't Harry have stayed the same age as when he died, I'm not sure how that would work.
Thinking to Voldermort's demise, well everyone think he's a baddy he'll die but I thought perhaps he might just lose his powers to become muggle Tom Riddle (the prophecy only refers to the Dark Lord when saying only one can survive) again which he despised. This would make sense with what Dumbledore always said that there are fates worse that death, and this was one of Voldermort's greatest flaws however this line having not been included in the film makes me wonder if that means it isn't important enough. I'm also not sure how that would come about as J K has used backfiring curses and things before, so would she echo the start again or think of something original, I'm not sure. I don't really like to think he'd use the Gryffindor sword or the killing curse as it would make Harry a direct/brutal killer which he stops Lupin and Sirius becoming in book 3 (or perhaps just int he film I'm not sure) saying he didn't think his father would want his two best friends becoming killers and it would be dropping to the Death Eater's and Voldermort's level however I'm not sure Harry would be happy to let someone else do it so perhaps as is said all along 'love' will kill him in an indirect way because of Harry but I'm unsure how that would work either.
In terms of ships (who gets with who) got to be Hermione and Ron, Harry back with Ginny, Remus and Tonks, Bill and Fleur. I would have liked Neville with someone but J K's dismissed Luna, and also I'd like to see him get revenge in some way over Bellatrix and see his parents make some degree of recovery which would probably make him happier than gaining a girlfriend. I did wonder if there had been something between Remus and Lily though, after re-watching film 3. There are some interesting lines said by him to Harry on the bridge and J K has said that something in that film that was included gave her goosebumps or something because it gave clues for future books or something like that though what that would mean to the story I don't know but that would probably be something he discovers when he visits Godric's Hollow or talks to Aunt Petunia, perhaps that's the thing that means there's more to Petunia than meets the eye, that she liked him or knew him or something, I don't know perhaps not, but I think she knows something more than Harry knows or something.
As to other characters dying, I'm really not sure who it will be, at least 2 major characters that she didn't intend to die suggest at least one of the trio because she had previously said in an early interview that the trio would survive, most likely Harry. Or if it is one of the other two, it could be because the other is in danger and they are sacrificing themselves but to get them together eventually and then to kill one of them would be cruel as they would have such a short time 'together'. I really would like to see Neville and Luna survive lol but I just don't know if they will. I think Hagrid's life is very much in danger too but to kill yet another of Harry's 'family' figures would be so cruel and no longer necessary as Harry has already realised he can't keep letting people get killed stopping him from being hurt which is really why the other deaths of significant characters have needed to happen as well as to keep it 'real' as J K as said I think.
Lastly, for now, to Snape - after watching the new film, I'm tempted to believe he is on the Order's side although that does not mean he is a good person (as Sirius said, which interestingly was included in the film, the world is not split into good people and death eaters) although I did keep changing my mind a lot when reading different theories and thoughts and re-reading and watching the books and films. When I read the last chapters of Half Blood Prince I do think Dumbledore knew what Snape was going to do, and I don't know but perhaps, I think that he was pleading for him to do it, rather than to not, and the look of repulsion is at what he's doing as opposed to at Dumbledore, because otherwise we would hve seen him look at him like that before even if it was when Dumbledore was not looking his way. Although perhaps not, oh I don't know lol, that is what makes these books so good, these things can't be worked out for definite yet clues are there to be discussed, but we will know soon, though whether we'll get all the answers we want is debatable. If J K's said 'never say never' to more books, some things may not be answered (perhaps to be in an encyclopedia type thing) and that also suggests perhaps Harry survives but then again she said something along of the lines of there being a clear ending which could suggest otherwise. I don't really know if another book could work, an encyclopedia would make more sense I think, but part of me wants to think another full story, awhile into the future could still be a possibility.

Post any comments if you have any thoughts on what I've said or your own theories, if your a big HP fan with no friends who are really interested and want to chat about HP theories this week before it's too late and the last book comes out that would be cool too, so just give me your email or myspace address and I'll add you or just say and I'll give you mine if you'd rather. :-)

My Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix film review (film and book 5 spoilers)

2007-07-14T20:41:00.001+01:00

So I'd heard quite a bit about the film beforehand and also expected a lot to not be included from the books and things to not be as I imagined them as I have always preferred the books and disliked some of the aspects of the films. The opening of this film made me think this was going to be the same, the park was weird, the dementors seemed to have a huge effect, the other kids were there to start with and the actual dementors have been changed for the worse, since when have dementors grabbed at people and been skeletal? BUT I liked the dialogue between Harry and Dudley in the park and the way the others just laughed at Harry's wand, I also thought the way they filmed the dementors with Dudley was interesting, as you can't really tell if Dudley can see them or anything that may help guess what will be revealed in Deathly Hallows.
The scene in Privet Drive with Uncle Dursley and Aunt Petunia was just a bit weird and didn't feel right but I'm not really sure why. Tonks didn't look as I imagined but her personality was good, not that she had a lot to say. Moody and his stick rather than a wand and no explanation of the protections over Grimauld Place was a bit disappointing however, quite liked Grimmauld Place otherwise though as well as Kreacher.
Such a shame about Sirius as he is a great character, loved the stuff between him and Harry and really felt Harry was sad during those scenes, yet it moved on so quickly and in the scenes with Dumbledore at the end there was no real mention of it, no desperate search to try and find a way to contact him again (like asking Nearly Headless Nick). I did like the Voldermort vs Dumbledore battle though, good effects and loved the possession of Harry stuff, some good lines and acting. On an acting front, Bellatrix was awesome, as was Luna (loved all her lines, she so stole all the scenes she was in lol) but Hermione just seemed a bit too over the top in the delivery of the lines a lot of the time although Emma does a good job at other points. Back to Luna, even though I know J K Rowling has dismissed the suggestion of Luna and Neville getting together there were some interesting moments in this film to suggest otherwise. One time Luna, as calm as anything in the middle of the battles, said to Neville 'that was really good' or something along those lines and also Neville grabs Luna to pull her out of the way at some point and I;m sure they even hold hands which is so adorable. Both characters are, so put together it equals mega adorableness lol. I also liked the bit with Neville talking about his parents to Harry, I may have cried a bit (only just had tears in my eyes for the death later on however, partly because it moved on so quick).
The Occlumency was good but quick, as was a lot of the stuff, didn't see Lily in Snape's memory though, don't know if I missed her or if she wasn't included in the end, I know she was cast.
There were quite a few things, like the Ministry set (especially the veil) and Mrs Figg, that I thought looked wrong in a way but still worked for the film. The veil stuff was interesting, I need to watch it again really to be sure so this could be incorrect but I think Bellatrix says Avada Kedavra but then Sirius sort of stumbles (it's not really made clear) and then goes into the veil, rather than falling straight down dead like we've seen in the past with the killing curse but then again it may just have been the way it was done or I could be remembering wrong so I'm still unsure whether that means all people who die go behind the veil or if it's just because Sirius fell through it that he will. I'm leaning, however, more to the thought that everyone does, but I also think you can't just walk in and back out even if your not dead, so if Sirius did just fall in, he'd still be dead if that makes any sense.
I'm sure there was more I wanted to say on the film but I can't really remember now (oh yeah I did like the look Ginny gave when Harry was staying behind with Cho after one of the DA meetings, and I thought the film had a lot of funny moments, liked the goat walking by Aberforth in the Hog's Head, nice touch for book fans) but I may come back and add things later on lol.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix London Premiere and LeakyMug

2007-07-05T21:00:00.000+01:00

I arrived at about 12pm, grabbed some lunch and took what I thought would be my place for the stars to arrive at 5pm. Some minutes later however, I discover an extra section, already closed off where the really early risers are waiting patiently and see the arch ways where the guests will walk through, therefore I move. A little later still police turn up and decide to tell us where we are standing is the drop off point and so we move again, this time, to the place we shall remain, give or take some pushing and shoving, and moving temporarily to allow a van to get through.
Time seemed to pass slowly but eventually the guests began to arrive, and so did the rain, and thunder, and more rain. I missed the main trio but saw most of the other guests arrive however many went straight through the arch into the main area, some did walk along where we were but I only managed to get Evanna Lynch's (Luna Lovegood) autograph which I thought was cool, she is pretty awesome, brilliant Luna looks wise, looking forward to seeing her in the actual film - love the fact she was/is a huge fan too and was chosen from the open casting last year.

I have some photos and some my dad took, though with many umbrellas about it wasn't very easy to get any at all let alone half decent ones, but I might post them if I get around to it lol.

After the premiere, I went along to Piccadilly Theatre to watch a live LeakyMug (www.leakymug.com ) which turned out mainly to be about the film which although quite interesting I was a little disappointed as would have liked to have listened to more Deathly Hallows theorising.

The actual film comes out next week so hopefully I will go and see it, should be good, especially looking for clues for Deathly Hallows, with regards to what is left out or how certain things are done. :)

O.k so why did I say that?

2007-07-01T18:31:00.001+01:00

Today, I spent 7 hours (an hour or so more that for the Luna casting last year, despite arriving for this an hour and a half earlier than that time) queuing at Earls Court to have my photo taken and then go into a room with the casting directors who were looking for someone to play Lavender Brown in the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. When we were all in there they told us to say our name and age, this bit I managed fine, wasn't shy or too quiet but then had to say something about myself. Now I wasn't the only one to go for the funny option with random facts but looking back I really shouldn't have said 'I really like queuing' and probably should have said 'My dream job would either be an actress or a director' but no,I went for the funny option and couldn't think of anything distinctive to say about myself. They were like 'awww good' when I said it and really I doubt they would not ask me back on the grounds of saying something silly an irrelvant if they'd thought I had the look for the part but still, looking back it's bugging me a little. I did have a laugh waiting to go in, chatting to the other girls around me and I have to say if the oppertunity arose I'd do it all again, though I may well go a little earlier.
I haven't definately not got the chance to go back for a screen test yet, as they were ringing some people supposedly tonight and tomorrow but I'm not overly hopefull.
Now I be rather tired, got up at about 7 this morning, and had been to a family wedding party in the evening yesterday, not getting home until about half 12.

Some things I just don't get

2007-06-29T18:30:00.000+01:00

Why getting and being drunk is so exciting and something to be really proud of. This isn't a moan as such at people who do have that view, as of course everyone is welcome to do what they want and many people, including close friends do. But it isn't something I have a great urge to do, I just don't understand it. Why would I want to make myself out of control of what I am doing and then not be able to remember what I did. I can understand that drinking a little bit, making yourself just a little more outgoing, happier perhaps could be enjoyable and I have done that. However if you're drinking a lot with the purpose of changing your personality in that way, then clearly you're not happy with how you are normally. Would it not be better to try, however difficult it may be, to change your sober self rather than use something to artificially and temporarily to change yourself.

This lack of understanding can cause problems however when the majority of my friends seem to be ones who enjoy drinking, and they also seem only to have fun, and think mainly only of drinking. Parties can be fun, if people get to a certain drunkenness and the emphasis is on socialising and having a laugh rather than getting totally out of it, and in generally the boy's case's doing something incredibly stupid or dangerous or just plain mean to somebody else even if they do actually sincerely like the other person. That's another thing I don't get, why boys think it's fun to be horrible to their friends, but I'm a girl so I guess I'm not supposed to.

I thought I'd found a group of friends however that I finally had lots in common with, and yes I have some things, and yes I like many of them a lot, but I still feel apart from them. That is also not just because of the varying interests but because in part, of my shy and quietness, some of them still intimidate me with their loudness, although others I do now feel comfortable around enough to talk but I do still get referred to as the 'quiet' one which annoys me, along with the jokes/digs about it. It's not as if I do it on purpose, or that I want to be shy. It's something I can't help, something I'd rather change a little. Just so that I have the confidence to talk more and people actually notice me and know me for something other than just the fact I'm quiet.

Anyhow, I should stop this kind of rant, if anyone who is my friend and thinks any of this applies to them read this, don't take it the wrong way, I do, as I said, like you all, just don't understand some things.

Wizard Rock, well rocks.

2007-06-07T21:18:00.000+01:00

For anyone not familiar with Wizard Rock, why ever not? Er... I mean it is rock that is to say music about Harry Potter, all sorts of bands exists with different styles of music ranging from The Whomping Willows to The Remus Lupins and Draco and the Malfoys. Apart from the great names they also make great music. O.k so I'll admit not all of them are the worlds best singers, but it's energetic, it's imaginative, it's fun. Some may laugh, some may just not get it, but some may love it. The most well known and I believe one of, if not, the first band to come about is Harry and The Potters. Now most of these bands are from America, as are these, but they were visiting for a U.K tour so naturally I had to go and see them. It was in a small youth centre, and arriving with my dad who later left me to it alone (none of my friends are really into HP enough to agree to come along - shame on them) and I was a bit unsure what to expect and didn't think there'd be many people there. I was wrong, o.k so there wasn't what you'd call loads, but there were more than I thought there might be and they were all rather more into it than I'd expected which was great. I admit I hadn't listened to a lot of these guys stuff, I'd heard some of their stuff, but mostly listened to other Wizard bands. So I could only sing along to a few of their songs but I had a great time. Spoke to a few people, one I'd seen before and the live PotterCast in London and lots had HP related items and wands (which I was jealous of - note to self - buy a wand) and some were even in costumes which I thought was rather cool. I bought a t-shirt, which is pretty cool too and a CD, couldn't resist I'm afraid lol. The gig itself I thought was pretty awesome, they were rather into it, and overly energetic, jumping around and such, I even jumped around for a while as did practically everyone, I also danced for most of the time, not worrying too much what people thought of me, all in all, it was a great atmosphere, which I think is a lot of what makes a good gig great. :)

Links -

www.myspace.com/harryandthepotters
www.myspace.com/theremuslupins
www.myspace.com/thewhompingwillows
www.myspace.com/dracoandthemalfoys

Other Wizard Rock bands can be found via the friend lists of those bands

http://www.pottercast.com/

Why do we always do this to ourselves?

2007-06-07T20:02:00.000+01:00

Worry about something for weeks and weeks, try to convince ourselves it will be fine, know you're right but worry still the same? That's what I've been doing, about AS Level exams, English Language and Media Studies, the later of which having been completed this morning. Neither exam being particularly as bad as one would expect according to the amount I worried myself about them beforehand. I was ill (yep, again) before my first exam and although I was feeling better by the time the exam came I was still rather tired and my revision had suffered somewhat, therefore I don't feel particularly confident that I did well but I remain hopeful for somewhere near a decent grade, once the coursework which I enjoyed much more (I wrote one live gig review of two of my fave artist/band - a certain gorgeous Paolo Nutini and The Stereophonics, and I also wrote an article against animal cruelty, a subject I am rather passionate about) has been taken into account. The media exam today I felt went rather better but I shall not say too much (though I wrote rather a lot in the exam, only just managing to write everything down in time in both of them, mainly because I remember lots and try and include it all in some way, though that does not necessarily mean what I have included will get me a good grade) as not to jinx it in anyway. When I feel I've done well and are optimistic I tend to find I actually haven't done as well as I had though and am disappointed so I have decided to think pessimistically or realistically so as not to build my hopes up but having said that I'm sure hopeful thoughts will enter my mind, maybe ones that are slightly realistic but more likely ones that are me being overly-confident when I shouldn't be. I think sometimes I think I'll do fine, I always seem to, and then I don't and it thankfully brings me back to reality, that just because I've always been told I was clever, always got reasonably good grades doesn't mean I will, o.k so I haven't failed my exams, I got a D and a C in my first modules (I have just re-sit them both, having been told to do so my my teachers as they believe perhaps foolishly, perhaps correctly that I can do better) and many people would consider them great grades, but I have always had rather high expectations of myself which can be help but also sometimes a hindrance. Hopefully I shall be pleased with my results when I get think in August (I think) though I have to say I'm rather more nervous about my bf's results than my own as I want him to do well sooooo much and he is always so pessimistic about his abilities.

Anyhow, now the exams are over, I can stop worrying about them (until the next ones in January prob anyhow lol *rollseyes*) and enjoy rather few things. Firstly, I plan on doing a little re-invention of myself, ironing out a few shall we say unsatisfactory aspects of myself, not appearance wise but I plan to change my appearance a little anyway just to aid the re-inventing and emergence of the 'new me' by having my hair cut and then dyed/bleached although to what extent I'm as of yet undecided. I am also at the beginning of re-decorating, I have three colours I want to put in the room, o.k with accessories four but I think the way I plan it it should work out o.k, perhaps lol. Other exciting things include Harry Potter summer, o.k so it's not really called that but there are so many things going on, not to mention the last book :'-( being released. I am also working on a few stories, not for any real reason, though one project I'm yet to start is for a competition but only involves writing a small part of one. There's also the minor thing of driving, yup my parents have decided to let me loose on the roads, well o.k not quite, but they have taken me out a few times, I think I'm quite good but hopefully will be getting proper lessons soon, hmmm that could prove to be an entirely different story all together :P Anyhow I'm sure there was much more I was going to say but I've rambled on enough for today I think, oh actually, hmmm actually will start a new blog for that me thinks ;)

Easter Holidays - a time for relaxation and writing.

2007-04-23T20:15:00.000+01:00

Well here I am, finally getting round to writing about my Easter Holidays. The two weeks were rather interesting for a variety of reasons. I wanted to go away, even just for a night, to get away from everything normal and be able to chill out and relax but I didn't get the chance. I did however do many things that was quite good. Firstly I've been driving. It is a little bit scary but also fun and will provide with me so much freedom once/ if I manage to learn everything and pass my test although I don't expect it will happen for quite a little while yet lol. Other things I have done include going to a random pond to sit and relax, going canoeing, going to Littlehampton, going to the Isle of Wight (Alum bay/needles = gorgeous views, almost tropical - clear sea, awesome cliffs lol). Also went to a party although that can't be counted under the list of relaxing things lol but it was fun. My bf did however go away for a week and leave me, however that turned out okay as it gave me some time to attempt to find myself again and try to arrange/make sense of my thoughts which probably makes no sense or sounds daft but there you go I probably am lol. I did some reminiscing about younger me whilst listening to Alistair Griffin's album which I hadn't listened to in quite a while which was fun and a bit sad at the same time for various reasons. I also realised how much I have changed in different ways over the last few years.

I have also been occupying myself by means of writing a book. It's a semi-biographical story with Beth being the main character. Towards the beginning, it is very much based on true events however details and characters have been altered/exaggerated/imagined along the way, As the story goes on, partly because it will reach a point at which I currently am so will have to, events will begin to be completely made up however Beth is very much me in many ways and her feelings and opinions for the most part will most likely be my own. So far I have about 115 pages (although it is a small book - which happens to be made of black fabric for the cover and oldy looking cream pages inside which attracted me lol) but I am adding to it almost every day. Having read it back to myself I have wondered if it is indeed too personal and if anyone whom the event concerned at the time read it they may realise which may not necessarily be bad but I'm not sure. The story really is a love story, describing a girl's journey through love and life (starting at college age), showing the temptations and disappointments as well as the good things that life often brings. I decided not to include too much technology in my story as I think books should be an escape from those things which is why I love Harry Potter as in the wizarding world they do not really encounter a lot of technology, and to me that benefits them and the story itself. I also love Jane Austen (mainly Pride and Prejudice) and the time period in which her books are set as I love their way of life and their language usage, because of this the way in which I tell my story, in parts has the feel of such books. I have tried to replace more modern things in my book with more old fashioned things although the story is still rally set in the present. Perhaps in a village where old traditions are still adhered to and technology and all such things associated with modern times are not as evident or important. I do kind of have ideas as to where my story is going and how it will end although there are a lot of areas in which I am still unsure, I don't have a title for it either yet, that may not be properly decided upon until the book is finished. After I have written it, if indeed I do finish it, which I hope I do, depending on how long it ends up being I don't know what I'll do with it or if I will let many people read it. Not without cutting bits out or changing things anyway. So far only my bf has read all of it and even then I wonder if I reveal too much of myself inside the words. I guess that is what sometimes makes a good book though, when you get to see inside of somebody else, spend a bit of time in their mind and get an idea of what they are like. Then again to most people who do not know me it will just be a character.

Now though, it is back to college and preparing for the slightly worringly fast, approaching exams which I'm sure you will probably all hear about at some point. I actually sometimes enjoy exams which probably makes me sound rather nerdy indeed, and well partly, I am but these I am not so as I didn't do as well as I'd hoped in the January ones so have re-sits as well as the May/June ones which is going to be added stress and revision and confusion so I worry I will not be able to do any better although hopefully if I get myself into gear and start revising and concentrating on college and the exams I might do. Talking of that, concentrating on college is a rather tricky thing to do when there are HP and POTC films coming out very soon. There is also this little thing of the LAST Harry Potter book being released, and although that is not until after my exams are finished, I would rather be re-reading books 1 -6 and participating in much theorising while I still can that revising for exams but oh well I guess I'll have to attempt some good time organisation/revision planning (hmmmm yea not a strong point, I like making plans/lists as I am that sort of person but sticking to the plans rarely proves to be so easy) and multi-tasking. I do ofcourse have my bf to keep me smiling through the stresses and upset (if Harry dies, which he won't do, hopefully) that may occur. So let the fun begin... :)

I've been to the BBC, oh yes.

2007-03-27T21:36:00.000+01:00

Last week I went on a media trip to BBC T.V Centre, which is something I've wanted to do. We had people who gave us a guided tour of the place, which involved seeing where all the news comes in and is organised and whatever although we could only see it from behind glass. They also took us to the CBBC area where we saw the control room where the shots that are shown and stuff is decided and carried out. This was of particular interest to me, I could imagine myself doing something like that perhaps. The whole atmosphere is something I'd love to be part of. We also went into a filming studio where I sat on one of the presenters chairs lol that was cool. Although they pointed out that the sets look a lot better and bigger on screen than they do when you see them in person. The Blue Peter garden was cool although small, I haven't really watched it recently so didn't have an image of what I thought it would be like exactly though.
Another area we went to, was the weather. Here they had a screen like those actually used in the T.V weather forecasts, that they used to demonstrate how the blue screen works, the reference to Harry Potter in their explanation which, if you know me you'll know this quite predictably, kept my interest hehe lol. The penultimate place we were taken was a mock studio designed specifically for the tours were they did a fake news bit and some Weakest link with a few of the group helping out with this and in the mock control room.
The last place we were taken to, via many corridors with green rooms, dry cleaners and even a hairdresser, was the shop. It was here that I bought what I think is a rather cool pen which says BBC on it. :P lol

To be continued... (probably lol)

Well I'm back to continue this post, as I said I would, although a few days later than I had planned. After the, suprisingly short, visit to the BBC, we all got back on our coach to head off to the Science Museum. Here we grabbed some lunch after walking up and down the corridors past various large stuff such as cars, weapons, and planes trying to find the place we were looking for, and then we took our seats inside the IMAX to watch Deep Sea 3D. The screen, as we were told, was rather large and it was quite a cool experience, calming almost at points, as it was as if we were swimming in coral reefs, I could almost have forgotten I was really in a cinema, if there weren't railings at the front also in my view, that is. However the fact it was narrated by Kate Winslet and Johnny Depp had no bearing on me enjoying the film ofcourse. ;P Though saying that, I don't know if I would have known this had I not read it previosley/seen it in the titles.

After this, we boarded our coach and headed home again having had an overall enjoyable day.

January Results

2007-03-11T18:35:00.000Z

Well I went to college feeling excited about getting my results, I left college feeling dissapointed about having got my results. I didn't fail, I didn't do as bad as many people but I was dissapointed with what I got. I got a D in English Language and a C in Media. My C was I think to be expected as on the day of that exam my mind was quite distracted thinking about whether I'd manage the exam without being sick and I knew as soon as I'd come out of the exam that there were things I didn't mention that perhaps I should have done but part of me had still been hoping for higher. I don't know how close I was to getting a B would be interesting to find out. The D I got was my most annoying as after getting an E in my mock I spent alot of time revising everything I'd been taught and I wrote alot in my exam and felt confident that I'd written about most of the things I needed to and done well so was expecting to get atleast a B if not an A. The teachers were confused by the low grades and so are sending some off to be re-marked. They said that some have gone up from a D to an A after being re-marked but to not get our hopes up as they could alwya sbe re-marked and be given an even lower grade. It would be great to find they do get put up but if not I'll probably be doing a re-sit and as apparently these are put on the same day as the next exam in May it's going to be a little stressfull, and I worry that I'll mess up the next as I'll be trying to remember everything for the re-take one but hopefully it will work out o.k. It is still a pass and coursework (which I enjoy doing more and am more confident with) will count towards the final mark so should be fine for getting me through to be able to take the course to A2 in September *hopefully*. :)

The best live PotterCast in London ever!

2007-03-04T20:27:00.000Z

O.k so the title is a little bit of a reference to John Noe's previous mentions of each PotterCast being the best whatever number it was on each and every PotterCast but it is a true enough statement, atleast for the moment, perhaops it will change when/if they return to do another, hopefully the next time with Sue too. So anyhow if you're wondering what I am on about, last Saturday I went to London, first to attend a Podcast about Harry Potter being held in a Borders in Charring Cross Road. I left on the train at about 10am and arrived at the Borders store at about 11 and as the podcast wasn't due to start and couldn't see many people about Iwent off elsewhere to grab some lunch. A little over an hour later I made my way back to the Borders store and upstairs to find that earlier I had been looking on the wrong floor and that everyone was on the next floor up so there wasn't many chairs left. Also nearly as soon as I arrived, a lady photographer grabbed me to ask if I'd mind having some photos taken along with some other Potters fans as I had my PotterCast t-shirt on. A group of 4 of us, were taken to the front, to stand infront of a display of the Potter books to pose whilst holding the books. After they'd finished with us, I decided to sit on the floor at the front, just to the side of where Melissa and John (the Podcasters) would be sitting shortly. This proved to be both a good and bad idea as although I had a good view, I also got rather still legs from sitting for over an hour with my legs bent in positions they shouldn't be for that amount of time. A little later than the scheduled start time, Melissa and John appeared and sat down in the large Border's chairs that had been supplied for them and picked up their microphones ready for the podcast. They talked about their experience in England, and their trips to see the various plays currently featuring some Potter actors and actresses. Talk then turned to the HP games and then to theories and questions about the books. There were many interesting theories although I think I'll need to re-listen to the podcast to remember what they were now! (If you want to listen go to - PotterCast.com or see the little advert thingy I have for it on the left). Once the Podcast had regrettably finished, the hosts hung aroudn for awhile talking to everyone, I wasn't sure what to say to them but I got my phot taken with them which was cool, I also didn't have enough courage to talk to anyone else there, I was hoping to meet some people form the leakylounge.com forums and I did recognise one or two people but I didn't, hopefully there will be another oppertunity to do so (perhaps at another Podcast from a different Harry Potter website ;P lol). After awhile I left the Borders store and made my way to Oxford Street to do some shopping. I found some fingerless long, stripey, purple and black pirate themed gloves and pirate themed socks on a stall that i couldn't resist buying and I aslo bought a top from Topshop that says - 'Pick flowers not fights' which I thought was rather cool. The Topshop there is rather huge, there is almost one floor entirely of accessories and such things. Thankfully it wasn't as hot this time, howeever it was rtaher busy. I qutie like the whole busy atmosphere London has but I also love the atmosphere when walking back in the evening when it is all dark and a sort of hushedness about when walking across a bridge over the thames, and the traffic and other nightime noise is just quiet background noise and you can see the lights and everywhere seems friendly and calm (near the London eye this is) I just love it. I don't think I would be able to stand London every day though as it does get rather too hectic and shopping with lots of people means you miss lots of things you might have otherwise seen. :)

Timmmmber

2007-02-18T21:11:00.000Z

That would have been a good word to have shouted at certain times yesterday afternoon. I took two partly willing volunteers, previously mentioned in last blog. to a little wooded area to film scenes (mainly sword fighting) for my media project (a trailer for a pirate themed film) both dressed in pirate gear, my bf making a rather sexy pirate I have to say. I do have a little obsession, no really I'd say it's a large interest in things piratey so it was pretty safe to predict I was going to incorporate pirates into my media and then enjoy watching bf dressed as pirate (complete with hat ala Captain Jack Sparrow) probably a little too much much. Though part of my reason for enjoying watching him was because I got to laugh at him and other pirate volunteer fighting, hurting themselves and bf attempting to swing on a tree that was never going to hold his wait hence the title to this particular blog. Despite having not overly serious volunteers I did manage to get most of the scenes that I wanted to filmed. Today I also filmed some more stuff for my trailer - this involved me going to Portsmouth, on HMS Victory and having a look around and then on a harbour tour (being a partly open roofed boat meant it was a rather cold but enjoyable - and also I find rather calming as I find most boat/canoe trips often are - none the less 40ish minute trip) on which I filmed part of the HMS Warrior and open water shots that I hope to edit so that they appear as if a pirate ship is in an ocean rather than an old ship in Portsmouth Harbour. I also took the advantage of their being various gift shops to do some shopping, filmed some random stuff, and bought a pretty though quite possibly over priced turquoise shell, a pencil with the Mary Rose on the top of it, a purple feather pen, a canon ball keyring and some chocolate for my mum. None of those things did I really need but I was just too tempted to leave the shop without them, having already spotted these possibly - possibly not - brilliant finds. I returned home happy, although rather cold and quite probably facing the prospect of red wind burned cheeks to have to try and conceal before college in the morning.

Going back to Wednesday, Valentines day, as I did mention this beforehand I felt I should go back to it and say that it was a good day, spent at home watching a DVD (Just like Heaven, which is a reasonably good film I thought with quite funny parts, and although it was quite predictable in parts, it was also unpredictable in others, it also had a happy ending which of course if you are a regular reader you'll know I like) and generally hanging out with my bf which was lovely.

I'm currently reading The Devil Wears Prada, got to about chapter 16 so far, I'm still interested which is a good thing but I have found that I haven't had that grip that makes me want to keep reading on and on until I finish the book in a day having said that it is still an enjoyable read, despite the slightly negative reference to HP ;P lol. I'll give you my further opinions on this book once I have finished reading it. I'm not entirely sure where it's going or how everything will end up so I guess you could say it isn't predictable, though not everyone will necessarily class that as a good point. I also watched another DVD this week - ElizabethTown, which is a rather strange film, slightly unbelievable in places and I slightly lost interest in other parts and was doing other things at the same time as watching but I liked the way it ended with you not knowing if they were going to end up back together and it was a happy ending again lol and don't they make a gorgeous couple. :)

If you go down to the woods today you're sure of a big surprise

2007-02-13T22:03:00.000Z

O.k so you would have been had my previosley willing volunteers not decided to not get alot of sleep last night. I had planned to film some scenes for my media project - requiring to boys to dress up as pirates, me wear a long dress (originally made to be a LOTR elf dress) and film various stuff such as a sword fight. Had any dog walkers happened to see this potential amusing scene unfolding it would indeed have been a big surprise, but that will now have to wait until another day. Dog walkers in the area beware! lol.

As it happens, I still went to aforementioned woods with one, er... 'willing' volunteer (aka my bf), to do a bit of location spotting which I thought was fun, not sure said volunteer did though, let's just say it was rather muddy.

On other news, it be Valentines day tomorow, I have present and card ready, just about and things planned for it so I'd like to think I was reasonably prepared, makes a change, though I am still considering a trip to the local shop tomorow morning incase I change my mind lol.

Some rather exciting news next, well I thought so anyway, PotterCast, the Harry Potter podcast that I may have mentioned once or twice in my blogs ;p is set to do a live podcast over here in the U.K which I shall hopefully be able to get to *fingers crossed* and wear my PotterCast t-shirt with pride lol. This is also rather exciting, not just because I'll get to see the podcasters, or some fellow U.K HP fans but also because hopefully there will be some book discussion which will act as the next best thing to being able to get to any HP conventions (which I can't as the one here in London requires attendees to be 18 which I won't *quite* be when it is happening) before book 7 is released. So I'm rather happy about that, still trying to find some gigs to go to though, my list of gigs to go to is rather shorter than last years was, with the grand total of none, although I do have a comedy gig booked up and another a maybe at the moment.

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows

2007-02-03T19:48:00.000Z

In true Sue (PotterCast) style my response to this is at first squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I first noticed mentions of a book 7 release in myspace bulletin titles and quickly headed over to www.leakynews.com to check if this was true. It was - July 21st will see the last in a series be released. I was rather excited when I first read this news but then it hit me, this is the last, the final book, no longer is the reasurance that she can't kill Harry because there will be more books. There wont. However stupid this may sound to those not a fan of the HP series, the final book makes me feel a little sad. It is said that apparently Waterstones are to set up a helpline for people once they have read the final book, I don't expect I will ring but if J K Rowling writes the deaths of any of the main characters it's pretty likely my eyes wont stay dry. I'll admit, I'm emotional, books. films can often quite easily make me cry and the HP books are no different. I become attached to the characters quickly, connect with them, adore them. If they are to die, it's likely I will cry as I did after book 6. I think this shows Jo's talent for writing. The ability to move me to cry uncontrollably about a fictional character's death, even if it be only for a short awhile until I pull myself together and remember that it is after all just that - fiction. Fiction however can be wonderfull, a place to emerse ourselves in, to escape from our current reality and the stresses of every day life. Discover a world completely different to our own, yet still be able to identify with certain aspects, learn, be entertained. The HP books and also to an extent the films (although the books have always remained my favourite of the two) have allowed me to cheer myself up when I've been feeling down and given me something to discuss and theorise about. The Harry Potter experience now, is more than just the initial reading of the books, I've seen the films, I have been to autograph shows to meet the actors from the films, I've had my mum make me a costume, I've based Halloween costumes on things from HP, I've played the computer games, I've bought merchandise and film cells and posters, I've joined serveral websites, I've listened to a podcast about it, I've longed to be able to go to a HP conference and been a little annoyed because I have to be 18. I've lived Harry Potter. To see this come to an end, is a little scary. O.k so it is only the books, the rest will continue for a few more years atleast I expect, there will still be films to release and actors to be met, conventions to be gone to.However I fear it will no longer be the same, answers of questions from previous books will be known, unanswered questions in this last book may never be answered so theorising will no longer be the same. Beloved characters gone, even though the never really existed in the beginning.

O.k so at the moment, I'm excited and thinking about where to go to get the last book, debating where there will be large book release events, where I can emerse myself in the excitement of hundreds of people, all waiting, nervous excitement surrounding me, most hoping no one is their to spoil this last book for them before they themselves can finish this final book.

I just can't get enough, it makes me so happy

2007-01-23T20:41:00.000Z

Well that title could be applied to many a thing in my life at the moment, but doesn't actually have alot of relevance to what this blog is planned to be about (the intended subject could be forgotten if i get distracted, thinking about it i'm not entirely sure what the reason for posting this was anymore) but it is from a new song posted by Tabby Callaghan which I rather like at the moment. :)

I'm now feeling rather better, been back to college, did my media exam (which I think went o.k, though I came out and was soon reminded of lots of words I should/could have included but my mind was slightly on thinking about having been ill so my mind wasn't as into it as I prob should have been, but I still hope that I did do o.k as I did write alot about some things, just didn't include a few other things and some of the media jargon I knew), and I've been to play pool and things, still got a bit of a cold though. I've been planning my Media a bit more, I now have another volunteer so it's just a case of getting them to a good place and filming it. I've also been having a look around for some music to go with it, at the moment I'm considering songs by either Tabby, Stereophonics or The View though I could still find something else.

I've just realised I'm a bit behind in listening to PotterCasts, I've been a bit busy whenever I've come online, o.k so mainly talking to people (my bf mostly) on msn but that's not the point lol, I have been busy doing some work aswell. I've got a few IT assignments done and handed in but I also have another couple to be working on which could be tricky and time consuming. There isn't as much pressure to get that done as there is for my media and english though. I've almost finished my first piece of english coursework, a article for an Animal Aid magazine so am starting to thinking about what I'll do for the second piece, at the moment I'm thinking it will most likely be some sort of reviews page for a music magazine. I think aslong as I spend enough time on this I will get it done in time. My media however, which is also due about March time, is a bit more of a concern as it involves filming which I'm just not sure when I can get time to do and then I'll have to edit it and then write an evaluation and if you don't get it in by the deadline you fail, so that's a little scary, but I just need to make sure I set aside enough time and get on with it i guess.

I'm still on the search for gigs and other things to go to lol, and I watched 2 new dvds recently - The Sweetest Thing and Wimbledon, both quite good films with happy endings which is something I do like, TST is a rather sexually charged film though I have to say, and W is rather sweet with a nice bit of comedy thrown in for good measure. All in all two rather enjoyable films but Wimbledon would prob be my favourite out of the two.

looks like it's going to one of those days, when you just can't get along

2007-01-17T21:16:00.000Z

Well to quote a little Riccardi song, from Friday afternoon/evening until today has been one of those days. I've been rather unwell and just lazed around, had two days off college (I've worked out, including two days where I missed lessons due to exams, I have missed in just that time, 9 hours of IT out of the whole 10 I have a week, considering I don't always like this lessons and it can be boring and tiring that's a lot) and have been feeling lifeless but I'm feeling better now, thankfully because being at home endlessly isn't much fun and as sad as this is, I actually miss going to college. I did miss an oppertunity to see Lenny Henry at the weekend though, but my parents went and I'm not too bothered as I don't think his humour would have all appealed to me, so really it's only the wasted money on the ticket that annoyed me. I have got some tickets to see Frank Skinner, which hopefully I will be able to go to and enjoy. :)

1 down 1 to go

2007-01-13T14:17:00.000Z

Well I have 4 exams in total (not including the silly general studies exams we supposedly *have* to take) to do over this year which is a considerably fewer amount than when I had to do my GCSE's. For this month I only have 2 - English Language, which I did and I think went o.k *hopefully*, and Media which I have next week. I'll then have until June for the rest, hopefully I won't have any to resit. I was unwell yesterday afternoon and today but hopefully I'll be feeling better very soon so I'll be o.k for my Media exam.

2007 - Nope I couldn't think of a more interesting title

2007-01-07T17:41:00.000Z

Well it has now been 2007 for a week so hope it has been a good start to the year for everyone.

Last year I had quite a few gigs and things planned around this time, this year I have tickets for one comedian, hopefully will get some for another soon and maybe for another at some point too but there is a rather sad list of no gigs to go to yet. I hope to see Tabby again this year so will have to keep an eye out for gigs, Albion have mentioned that there will be some exciting announcements soon so hopefully that will include some gigs. I also would really like to go to the Reading festival but will have to wait and see if that's possible this year or not. I have considered booking up to see The Feeling again this year but haven't done as of yet, and I wanted to see Paolo, but the London gigs are during the week so not practical thought knowing me, I'll give in the week before and go on a desperate search or bidding spree on Ebay lol. I do hope to see some of the not so famous bands/artists this year too and there's a few more famous ones that I'd quite like a chance to see. I want to try and out do last year but I'm not sure if will lol. :-)

Back to now, I've realised I'm really quite competitive, think Monica in Friends. I've been going to play pool with my bf a few times and well he beats me a lot, now I don't think I'm that bad in fact I have one or two really good shots (that may be luck but that's not the point ;P) yet I still seem to loose even if I catch up from far behind or am winning for a lot of the time and well I don't like loosing. Because of that I get what you might say is a little angry, not in the I'm going to go beat someone up way but in the I'm prob going to swear a little more than I normally do and hit the ball probably quite a bit harder than I should, resulting in either a good/lucky shot or the white ball going flying off the table and narrowly missing the people standing around the other table, who were thankfully people I knew from college but the fact remains I like to win. Personally I think perhaps beign an only child has had some effect on this, well that will be my excuse anyway and I feel I may be making a return trip to play again somewhen soon to try and prove I can win. :P I've just noticed I used the word somewhen, although apparently it isn't a word. I've used it for as long as I can remember and never realised that it isn't actually a word until it was pointed out to me. I'm not the only one to use it though but the people who don't (aka my bf :P) like to point out the fact it isn't a word, I have plans to get a petition or something with all the people I can find that use the word and send it to whoever writes the dictionary's, whether I'm actually sad enough to do that is yet to be seen ;) lol, if you do use the 'word' somewhen or have an opinion on it please leave a comment, would be interested to see how many people do in fact use somewhen.

In an attempt to regain any street cred I prob lost a long time ago I did do something a little cooler than arguing about the word somewhen and looking it up, I went shopping. I'm not a huge fan of shopping, mainly because I can never make up my mind, or they don't have what I want and I get fed up but it can be enjoyable for awhile, especially if you are in places with sales or cool things. I love Topshop, it is a fact that can't be denied, I could prob spend a lot of money in that shop, though with some of their prices that wouldn't mean buying a lot but I do get student discount which makes me feel happy. Today I bought two tops and a bag, the bag was the only thing in the sale, but the fact that it was a bag that I liked before it went into the sale was somewhat (which actually *is* in the dictionary! :S) satisfying. I also went into Claires, I don't often find anything of interest but today I found a guitar necklace that was half price from £3.50 which I though was a bargain and a very cool pirate themed coin purse with one of those catch things that I like because it kind of reminds me of old fashioned things, vintage would be the more impressive sounding word to use I think.

Talking of impressive sounding words, I have an English AS Exam this week, which I am a little nervous about, I've done some revision, probably not as much as I should have done but there is still time, I know most of the terminology but it will be a case of what texts I get, whether I can remember the words to use and whether I can put it all together make it sound impressive and make sense and actually answer the question being asked. Easy, then...

I also have a Media AS Exam the week after, but I am a little more confident about that as I got a higher grade in my mock though I'm still a little apprehensive of course. I also currently have coursework for my Media which we are just starting. I'm doing a film trailer, I got a video camera for Christmas, I've done my storyboards, so now I need to film it. This could be interesting seeing as my film is about pirates on a search for the truth about one of their ancestry. I have one costume, one willing volunteer and some prob rather ambitious ideas, yes interesting is definitely the word I'd use to describe trying to film this. I shall hopefully try and update you all with my progress with that when I can. Also if I get any gigs I shall probably come and let you all know.

My 2006

2006-12-31T14:59:00.000Z

Well 2006 has certainly been a busy year with many things happening throughout the course of it. Many changes have come to pass yet some things remain the same. I've changed from being at school to being at college and have a different group of friends now. I'm missing my old friends although I see some of them now and again, I do miss being at school occasionally and it still feels a little strange being at college but I am very glad that I have found a lovely group of people to be friends with, college wouldn't be much fun without them so despite the very small chance there is that any of you will read this I'd like to say thanks for welcoming me into your mad but wonderfull group.

On a different note, I've been to quite a few gigs and events, which I believe was one of last years resolutions ;P.

This year I've been to the following autograph shows -
Collectormania G-mex in Manchestor (Met 5 people from HP)
London Film and Comic Con (was in LOTR costume) (Met Elijah Wood)
Collectormania 10
Collectormania 9 (Met 4 HP people)
StarConUk (Met 2 HP people)

Premieres I've stood outside of -
POTC 2 (got no auto's but saw Orlando Bloom, Bill Nighy close and Johnny Depp from afar)
Driving Lessons (Got 4 autos of HP people)
Gigs -
Tabby & The Tsars
Alchemy/Tyler (x a few :P)
Alistair Griffin (x 2)
T4 on the beach
The View
Riccardi
The Storys
Paolo Nutini (x quite a few :p)
Larikin Love (Street teaming)
Spargo
The Feeling (x a few)
Various music events in London in the Summer (Canary Wharf, Clapham Common)
Few local things (Acoustic Fridays/BOTB)
Comedian - Ed Byrne

I've done a dance exam and been to the presentation to get a little award thingy lol, went to a casting for Harry Potter (HP), an animal aid fayre, did a sponsered walk, spoken to 3 Americans and someone from HP films at 4am in the morning on Skype and my question was played on the podcast (PotterCast.com), been made a moderator on a forum for the aforementioned HP podcast, have also sent filks and impersonations to said podcast though they weren't played I don't think lol, I started a HP fanfiction, done my GCSE's, went to my Prom, went to a few random parties, my mum made me a Hogwarts Robe and I've been collecting things for my Luna Lovegood and Captain Jack Sparrow Costumes, I went trick or treating and to bowling in a improvised Death Eater cloak lol, played Pool quite a bit and at College I have joined the Student Council which is something I knew I wanted to do before I went so was glad I didn't let my shyness stop me, though that and other things did stop me from doing other things but I hope to change that at some point or something.

Books read -

Lousise Bagshawe - Monday's child & Tuesday's child
Jane Austen - Pride & Prejudice
HP books again probably lol
Books about J K Rowling

Books started but not finished lol -

LOTR
Johnny Depp - A kind of Illusion

Books I attend to read/finish next year -
LOTR
Wuthering Heights
Some more Jane Austen books
Billie Piper autobiography
Another Louise Bagshawe book

Films watched (for 1st time)-
2 versions of Pride and Prejudice
Sense and Sensibility
Emma
Kate & Leopold
Sweet Home Alabama
Casanova
Calender girls
Driving Lessons (in cinema)
POTC 2 (in cinema and on dvd)
Ladies in Lavender
Corpse Bride
Maid in Manhatten
In Her Shoes
Charlie and The Chocolate Factory

So all in all I think it has been rather a busy year, I'm hopefully off to a party this evening (at which my new group of friends and bf will be) so should be a good way to bring in new year which will hopefully be a good one. Thanks to everyone who reads this who has helped in whatever way make this year a good one and I'd like to wish a Happy New year to everyone who reads my blog. Thanks :-)

Why do you have to go and make life so complicated?

2006-12-02T14:15:00.000Z

O.k so quoting a certain Avril Lavigne song there but it is in a way appropriate although not entirely somebody else's fault yet there actions have indeed played a part in my recent sadness. Lets just say I am no longer with boy mentioned previously however I have found myself liking another which I now think/know is a feeling recipricated. So for various reasons my life appears to be a little less complicated and much happier at present, in that respect anyway. It does however appear to be somewhat busy hence the lack of updates recently. I have to comment on the content of my blogs before mentioning the reasons for my busyness as I have been reading back my posts and this one so far and it appears to me that my sentences are somewhat sophisticated in my use of words and the way in which I structure them, I believe I watch too many period dramas such as Pride and Prejudice which influence the way in which I like to speak. I do have, and think I have mentioned before that I do have a love of the ways of these type of programmes and films.

Anyhow back to why I'm busy, which is a little annoying considering I'd like to have met up with certain people this weekend and I am usually bored but this week I have several things to do. Firslty, the most important, yet the thing that I least wish to do, is my IT work, we have to write a specification for a computer workstation, which I'll admit to not finding atall easy and which was supposed to have been in yesterday. I hop to have it done before I go to college and see my teacher on Monday though. Before then I have a gig to go to this evening, a certain Paolo Nutini, o.k so I have seen him many a time but I couldn't resist going again. I managed to get them on ebay, I was outbid in the last minutes but gave in and increased my bid and managed to secure the tickets for a price only slightly over what normally would have been payed for them. I didn't want to buy some for an extortainate price from someone who was selling them only to gain profit. On Sunday, hope to perhaps visit London again, to go to something at which I hope to get christmas gift ideas. Talking of christmas it is fast approaching it seems, well lights are already going up everywhere and I have now started to open my Pirates of the Carribeann themed advent calender. :p :)

Don't be afraid to shake your ass and misbehave

2006-11-12T16:56:00.000Z

I went to see The Feeling on thursday night at Oxford Brookes. I thought they were great as per usual. The venue wasn't overly big but was quite good. This was my 5th time seeing them I think - the atmosphere was good - the support - Luke Toms were good but also a little strange. Dan's voice was going at the end, so encore was done by I think it's Keiran (may have been Kevin lol) who sung the Beastie Boys song - Fight for your right to party (don't know if that's the right title) which was good and funny. I wasn't right at the front, I actually moved back for them because I was too close to the speakers but once I'd moved a little bit it was fine and I had a good night. I bought a T-shirt and a badge too, I'm sorry but I can't resist buying merchandise and badges.

On other news this week, I've been watching make me a supermodel - I think the wrong person went out of the girls - I think Senait should have stayed. Out of those who are left I believe Mary Anne should win as she has that something different. On the subject of reality tv competitions - I think the wrong person also went in Strictly come dancing. Peter was clearly the worst dancer out of all of the celebrities. I'm afraid I can't stand watching X Factor anymore, it's too fake, over the top and too much about the judges. I like to watch Robin Hood though, o.k so it can be a bit cheesy in places but I like it, and the actor who plays Robin (Jonas Armstrong I think) is rather hot ;p :) Oh btw it's my birthday on tuesday. :D

Sorry

2006-11-08T14:05:00.000Z

Hey, sorry for the lack of updates over here and I know I was going to blog about PotterCast but I haven't got round to doing that yet apart from 1 episode. I do plan to as and when I can though. Not that my opinions on whatever the topic happens to be matter overly but I shall post them anyway. On the subject of my life, seeing as this is what my blog should be about I guess I should mention it atleast a little. Well I am at college still, I haven't quit - whic his prob why I now update this less as I am busy, well kinda lol. I should be lets put it that way. I get the feeling I'm not doing enough work out side of lessons but hey, hanging out with my new mates and writing this is more fun :P Oh also I got myself a new boyfriend incase you're interested, which is always cool. :P :) I'm off to a gig this week too - The Feeling which should hopefully be good. I haven't been able to get hold of Paolo Nutini tickets though which is a bit of a bugger but I haven;t given up on that one just yet I;m sure I'll be able to atleast try and get some of ebay or scarletmist. I hope anyway as I don't want to go through December not seeing him as he rocked the last time and I'd like to get my total of gigs up to 9 before this year is through ;P. Another gig is one that was prostponed from before, which is coming up in the next few weeks - The View, still not got anyone to come with me to that one though, I can't decide who to ask lol. Anothger thing, which isn't a gig but is something I would like to go to if I can. Not sure if I will be able to or not as the trains are being awkward on the day I'd like to go. It's a convention at which Miranda Otto, Colin Baker and Jamie Waylett should be at so I'd like to go and get their autographs and listen to either the LOTR or Dr Who talks. Talking of LOTR I was watching bits of the one they showed on the TV at the weekend and I was watching the end opf it and despite the fact I kind of nkow what happens and have watched it before I still cry when he dies and when Sam says to Frodo that he's not leaving his because he made a promise and then a little later on Frodo tells Sam he's glad he's there - I can't help it, it just sets me off lol - I really want to finish the books as I started them but got confused so decided to watch the films and then go back to the books but I haven't got a chance to yet. I would like to before next year when there is a LOTR Convention planned that I would like to go to especially if the get some guests from the films. Anyways I'm running out of random stuff to write - oh it is my birthday soon (14th) - I don't really know what I'm getting though although I want a new phone and coat and a videocamera but don't knmow what out of that I'll get. I also wanted aparty but don't think I'm going to be allowed and I can't think of any other ideas (if you've got any party ideas feel free to leave a comment lol).

PotterCast

2006-10-22T13:34:00.000+01:00

Hello everyone I've decided to blog each week (when possible) about my thoughts on whatever has been mentioned in that weeks PotterCast. PotterCast for those of you who don't know is a podcast all about Harry Potter done by fans for the fans. Find it hear - www.pottercast.com where you can find out how to listen. :)

So PC 59, I thought the Canon Conundrums section was very interesting this week as it was about how did Hagrid know where to find Harry unless he'd been told by, the secret keeper (Peter Pettigrew) where the Potter's were. I think the idea of the charm that means only the secret keeper can know and tell people where they are, is destoyed once the house is, seems quite likely. I also think that Dumbledore is most likely going to have some sort of watch on the place. He knows that a dark wizard who wants to kill Harry is after them so I don't think he would be likely to just put the charm on the house and rely soley upon that, Dumbledore surely is going to take much more care than that.
(if this isn't making any sense, then you can read the Harry Potter books and listen to PotterCast or you can just skip the blogs about it but if it does make sense, feel free to leave comments with your opinions, or visit leakylounge.com to do that. :)

At the end of this PC they also mentioned someone sent them a photo of Chris Rankin in a PotterCast t-shirt, well that was me lol. :) I was in he other half of the pic, that version can be found on my myspace page.
Just a quick thing to add ,that I thought the song by the transcription elves was good :) I think that's about all I have to say about this episode, although I did laugh rather alot at the whole Dobby thing. :D

On another note, it's my half term which although it is nice that I don't have to get up and can be a bit more lazy and have time to get stuff done and stuff, I actually do like going to College now and really enjoy my long free's :P On the day we are supposed to be going back, we are supposed to be dressing up (as it's halloween) but I don't know how many people will do so I think I may just take my costume (I have robes, plan to attempt to make a mask out of paper mache which might be fun lol) and then put it on if others are wearing costumes lol.

I recently have been watching quite a few films, that have been rented from the library mostly, and have a few more at home that I plan to watch somewhen and I think I might write a bit about what I thought of them on my Myspace blog or on here but I won't forget you all here completely... probably ;P :-)

The best gig ever!

2006-10-16T10:36:00.000+01:00

Well I thought so anyway. Atmosphere wise Paolo Nutini's gig at the Brighton Concorde on Wednesday was certainly the best gig of his I've been to (and I have been to about 8 in the past 2 years) and I'd prob go as far to say that I'd been to (excluding T4 on the beach which is totally different so cannot be compared to). When everyone sand Last Request back to Paolo and he stopped to listen and smiled it was lovely. I know that prob sounds stupid but I've been a fan of him since he was a not quite so good looking 17 year old just like any other artist trying to get signed so to see that all these people were not only there to see him but knew the words was great. When he then sung Crazy right at the end everyone was dancing and singing, it was hot and packed and I had some tall bloke infront of me (why does that always happen?) but I didn't care. I was loving it. He also sing rainbows which has become a favourite although my faves do change quite regularly. I think my friend enjoyed it too, she hadn't seen Paolo before so was cool to go with her. I'm not sure she enjoyed the journey there though as I was sick but the less said about that the better I think. Going back to the gig itself I managed to get my dad to meet me at the door with some more money so I could buy a T-Shirt and osme badges. I just couldn't resist the badges I'm afraid and they do look lovely on my bag. I had considered hanging around after the gig to try and meet the band and for my friend to meet Paolo but we didn't which was a little annoying as I later found out they did come out.

Now you'd think that my week couldn't get anymore exciting but oh yes it can well o.k nothing's going to beat that gig for awhile but I went to see Ed Byrne at the weekend who was very funny as was his warm up act although I did have to try and make it look like I wasn't laughing at some points as I didnd't want my parents to think I'd understood the joke if you know what I mean. Oh I also went ice skating and managed to get knocked into and stay upright once and then later on I don't even remember being knocked into I just remember landing on the floor. I think my leg has stopped hurting now though.

So I did say I hadn't deserted you all on here but what with college and stuff I'm a bit more busy that I was in the Summer Holidays. I can't think of anything else to add atthe moment, well I could mention certain things that I have been told by people but as people from college may find this through my Myspace page (www.myspace.com/mysecretsinside) I think it best I don't say too much, I am enjoying College more now though. Oh and I just have to remind anyone who might have forgotten that Halloween is coming up which means dressing up which if you read this you'll know I love :P I'm currently thinking of eather putting the hood up on my Hogwarts robes and being a simple Dementor or making a Death Eater mask, a slight theme going on with both those ideas but come on you really think I'm going to turn down an oppertunity like this to wear something Harry Potter related. ;P On a completely unrelated note I've applied to try and get tickets (by doing street teaming things) for Razorlight but am not going to hope too much as I think it is unlikely especially as I haven't been finding enough time to even do the reports I am supposed to.

I put some new shoes on and suddenly everything is right.

2006-10-01T22:13:00.000+01:00

O.k so not quite but I did put some new shoes on, some brown suede like boots (that are not actually, hopefully not anyway, it doesn't say they are, suede as I don't like to wear anything like that or leather that has come from an animal). I rather like my new boots as they can prob double up as Pirate boots and go with my Captain Jack Sparrow costume that I am currently working on and have a cool hat. I think I may have shared with you the excitement I felt when I found said hat so we wont go into that again.

On the subject of costumes, I had a Ravenclaw robe my mum made for me to wear to Collectormania today in Milton Keynes but in the end I decided not to wear it. I did go though, even though I didn't get any of the autographs that I had considered getting (David Wenham - LOTR, Ian Somerholder and Maggie Grace - Lost) as I decided to save my money. I am hoping to maybe try and get Miranda Otto's and ofcourse I'm hoping for some more HP actors to be at other events so I get to wear my robe. The robe was supposed to be part of a Luna Lovegood costume but I think I need a different wig and some radish earrings, aswell as a proper/better jumper and tie before my look will be nearer to completion. Today I did buy a Dr Who pen which had a Tardis on it and makes sounds of the Tardis and the Dr Who theme tune which is rather cool I thought. I may well get funny looks if I decide to use it at college though. ;P

On the subject of college, I am enjoying it kind of, still settling in really and getting used to early mornings and need to get to bed earlier so I'm not so tired.

I am going to have a few late nights to come though as I'm hoping to get to a Paolo Nutini gig with a friend which should be good and I'm hoping to go and see Ed Bryne soonish although that is thankfully at a weekend.

ps. I've got that feeling there was something else I wanted to mention but I can't remember what it was now lol. :-)

Yet another 3 hour gap...

2006-09-22T12:18:00.000+01:00

Well I'm sat at College trying to think of what to do. My last lessons (English Language) finished at 11 and my next (ICT) starts at 3. I am hoping to go to something about getting involved in the college magazine before that although I don't know if I will as I don't know anyone else who is going. I did manage to volunteer myself to be my tutors joint Student council rep which should be fun :P.

I have got some homework to do but not sure if that's going to take me an hour. I walked randomly to a nearby shop when I didn't actually want anything in particular earlier and I had planned to take a book and go to a local park but I think it's still raining so that isn't the best of ideas. I do have a few thoughts to keep me from getting too miserable though. It's nearly the weekend which not only means a bit more of a lie in but that it is the weekend of StarConUk, at which Chris Rankin and now also Jamie Yeates, both of Harry Potter stardom are supposed to be appearing and that make me excited. I know what I want to say to Chris but whether I will ore not is a different matter. I have planned to ask if he has finished filming his parts in OOTP and whether he managed to get his 'head boy' badge in a scene somewhere like he said he would (jokingly I think lol) on PotterCast. I also want to say that I was one of the mad English people to go on Skype at 3am to speak to him on the PotterCast call in show. He can't call me mad though as he was up too :P

On another note, the gig I was supposed to be going to this week (The View) was cancelled due to illness I believe. I think it is going to be rescheduled but I don't yet know when.

The College seem to have banned Myspace for some reason which is unfair and also I got a warning through email from them saying I had been visiting too many banned sites but I haven't actually been trying to visit anything that has any real reason for being banned, I was just going to sites that I usually go to and mostly finding they had forbidden words on them but you are going to find that with a lot of internet forums.

That's about all I can really think to write about now although it has only taken me about 5 minutes so I still have rather a lot of time to wait but hey... :-)

Ahoy there

2006-09-19T22:01:00.000+01:00

Ahoy my pirate friends. It's 'talk like a pirate day' savvy? and I have only realised this evening which considering my slight interest with POTC is a shame as an excuse to quote it is mostly always welcome ;P

Yo ho, yo ho a pirates life for me...

Driving Lessons

2006-09-18T14:21:00.000+01:00

My dad has offered to get me some driving lessons as I am approaching 17 but that isn't what this blog is going to be about as I went to the cinema yesterday to see the film - Driving Lessons. My main reason for going was because it stars to people from Harry Potter which if you're a regualr reader of my blog will know that I am a fan of. These two people are Rupert Grint and Julie Walters. For this same reason I went to the premiere of it the other week to try and get their auotgraphs and was told by people coming out of it that it was very funny. I did see the humorous moments in it but wouldn't really class it as a comedy as such. It was however a good film. Ben, the character that Rupert plays, is I felt very similar to Ron so I would like to see him in something completely different but it was an enjoyable trip out anyhow.

College life

2006-09-12T23:16:00.000+01:00

Just a quick update from me becaue having started college means a few early mornings and i'm also rather tired from a busy and long day yesterday because decided to go off to Balham (The Bedford) to see Riccardi play, they were great and it was worth going I think but it did mean being tired this morning so I missed my train and was a little late to I.C.T. 'm sort of enjoying it so far (I have liked my English Language and Media lessons) but I was a bit annoyed that they messed my timetable/courses up so that I'm not currently doing what I originally chose to do but I will have to see if I enjoy everything this week and decide then whether I want to change a few things or not.

Prob will post more on that somewhen, hopefully, when I get a chance.

Ps. My dad booked up for me, him and my mum to go and see Ed Byrne which I think should be quite good and also I am hoping to go and see The View next week somewhen so it's still not all work and no play. ;P :-)

Laptop

2006-09-08T00:30:00.000+01:00

My dad kindly bought me a laptop today (as a present for doing well in my exams) although being the indecisive person that I am, am now wondering whethter I chose the right one. Oh and I had my hair cut today although I'm not sure if I like it yet or now ;P ...

My last week of freedom from education, for now anyway...

2006-09-06T23:25:00.000+01:00

I did have a long post but then had trouble posting it and lost it so I will try and get round to re-typing it tomorrow but if you want to get the general scaled down gist of it then you can see my latest 2 blogs on my Myspace page - www.myspace.com/mysecretsinside. :-)

Update on my life - oh yes it's just so interesting.

2006-09-02T00:19:00.000+01:00

(Copied from my Myspace for those who don't read that and are feeling all left out, I will get round to a blogging properly on here somewhen, hopefully...)

OK well maybe it's not that interesting but hey I'm going to post about it anyway, well this is my blog after all and I was asked what gigs I have planned to go to so one person might read this at least .

So gigs that I will hopefully be going to in the next few months - The Storys, Paolo Nutini, The View (I would like someone to come with me to that so I don't have to go with my dad so if you live near me and might be interested in coming, let me know), The Feeling. I haven't actually booked The Feeling tickets yet but hopefully will do tomorrow, also I may be booking to see Paolo in December as well as October if I can decided which venue I want to go to. (If anyone has been to both Shepherds Bush Empire and Brighton Dome then let me know which you thought was better, I have one opinion so far so would like a few more and may then go with the majority if I can't decide myself lol).
Other things I've got coming up that aren't gigs are maybe going to Star Con in London to try and meet Chris Rankin (aka Percy Weasley from HP), going to Collectormania10 if anyone I want to meet is announced. If I do go to that I may well be in costume - either a HP robe or as Captain Jack Sparrow. I bought a Pirate hat today which is rather cool and made me quite excited, probably more excited than it usually normal which shows what a sad life I lead otherwise but hey. I also have a shirt that might do but need to find the rest of the costume sometime. Also this month I'm hoping to get to London for the premiere of Driving Lessons to meet Rupert Grint and Julie Walters, who also happen to be in HP, obsessed... moi? Only a little.
Hmmm, anything I've not mentioned, well there is that thing of starting College, and a meal celebrating a birthday but I don't think there is anything else planned for just yet. I am thinking of going to RingCon next year which would mean an opportunity to wear my LOTR costume again or I might wear that to G-Mex in November actually depends if I got to Collectormania 10. I did want to go and see Muse and/or The Kooks but all the nearer venues have sold out so don't now when I'll get a chance.
Back to the present, today I went shopping and as well as getting excited about a Pirate hat, I bought some other new clothes. One of them is a top that I already have in a different colour that I think I now like better lol.
Anyway, I'm currently being shouted at to get off the computer and considering it is gone midnight, that is probably a good idea.

My results

2006-08-24T21:35:00.000+01:00

Well I got my results and some may have seen them posted on AG but if you haven't here they are -

A's in English Lang., Maths, French, Double Science (x 2), R.E, Bus. Studies and I.T.
B in Enlish Lit.
C in Music.

Ofcourse I'm pleased with them but I had hoped for an A* in I.T. I did get them in my exams (I got full marks in one and one off in the other but tehy were rather easy) but it was my coursework that let me down with an A and a B which is annoying because they should have said and I could have perhaps have tried to improve them *rollseyes*.

My good results does mean that I can get into College and that I get my reward for doing well from my dad - a laptop (hopefully). :-)

ps. Well done to anyone else who has recently got results. :-)

Arghhh!

2006-08-23T22:53:00.000+01:00

Tomorrow is the day that my GCSE results come out and although I've been excited and still am I am now also feeling a little bit nervous. I might come and post my results on here tomorrow once I've got them depending on what they are hehe.

On other subjects, my Myspace page is looking a little fuller now although I can never think of anything to blog about on there. I had planned to do one of two things on the 18th but ended up doing neither. I have in the last week, been canoeing (sp) and walked around Virginia waters (and no, the fact that they use this place to film some things for Harry Potter had nothing to do with me choosing to go there... well o.k maybe a little ;-P).

Also, I recently discovered starconuk.com which appears to have Chris Rankin aka Percy Weasley scheduled to attend. If this is indeed true, I shall hopefully be there as I would love to meet him. :-)

I haven't deserted you all, honest.

2006-08-14T21:54:00.000+01:00

I'm afraid I have been a little too interested in my new Myspace (www.myspace.com/mysecretsinside) and haven't got round to blogging on here but I thought I should today. Not sure now what to say though lol. I'm currently feeling a little annoyed after finding out that there is a Harry Potter convention planned for next year but then finding out that I will be 4 months (I think) too young to get in. :-( I'm still trying to find a way around this but not sure that I will, I even looked into one being held in Canada that I found prob isn't going to be for over 18's. It is a little far to go though. I guess I'll have to just wait and see and hope that there is one that I can get to before we have the last HP book. :-)

A bit of plugging

2006-08-02T14:16:00.000+01:00

Well, I don't have alot to blog about as I've not done alot well apart from go and see Pirates of the Carribean again. :P I do have a few opinions on things but I'm not sure if it is a good idea to share them at the moment, I may just wait and see what happens before saying anything. I like a quiet life me.

I will do a bit of shameless plugging though. Firstly for some sites that just involve you clicking button each day but will help other out who are in need -

www.thehungersite.com That is one of them, the other 5 should be accessible from that page.

Also I've added to and changed the list of links at the side so if you want to go and have a look all the links of websites that I vist most or that I support are there and hopefully working.

I have decided to delete my old myspace page aswell and started again, so it is only in the beginning stages at the moment and it still won't let me log into when I try and add people so if anyone wants to could you add me instead and then I should be able to see them when I access it through my msn.

Edit: Third time lucky I now have a Myspace page - www.myspace.com/mysecretsinside.

A year of blogging

2006-07-28T22:23:00.000+01:00

Well yesterday, was the 1st anniversary of the day I first posted on this blog and it has been a fun year filled with many exciting and sometimes slightly scary things.

I've left school for one thing although I'm not sure that has really sunk in properly just yet. I think it prob will more when I hopefully get my GCSE results in August. I've also been to many different places and been introduced to the world of street teaming and film conventions. Oh and I've also been to a casting call for Harry Potter which although I didn't get anywhere is a pretty cool experience to have.

Anyway before I get to reminisent (is that the right word?) I'll update you all on the last week. I went to Canary Wharf which was good as I hadn't been there before, quite a few huge glass buldings and small green parks. I also went to get myself a wristband so that I could get into Paolo Nutini's* signing in London the next day. I wasn't sure whether I couldget into his gig on Friday so decided I'd go up to the signing. He sung 5 songs despite the heat. I got my photo taken with him and he signed my album. I did think whilst standing in a hot queue that had I forseen this I could have tried to meet him before he got all these excited fans ;-P as I've been going to his gigs since I think 2004. I follow quite a few small/unsigned artists/bands and I think it will be unlikely (although great if it did happen) that all of them will achieve the success that they deserve so I'm pleased to see Paolo doing so well (he's just been given a gold disc!) atleast and I do hope that he wont be the only one.

So after spending the hottest two days in prob one of the hottest places - London, I decided to go to the beach on the colder day (o.k so it wasn't exactly cold but there was a bit more of a wind) which I guess was better as it meant I didn't get too hot. I had a good time though, I've been to different beaches in the past few weeks as my dad has been off work so he has been able to take me. he's back to worj next week though which means I need to find myself a job or something to do.

In the end I did manage to get into the Paolo gig last Firday and do the street teaming although in the end none of my friends that I asked could come so I arranged to meet up with some random person from the UKU site. I did have my dad with me (which was good as he was able to ring him whislt I recovered from being feeling ill) so it wasn't a completely stupid thing to do and as it happened he was nice enough and who he had said he was, thankfully. On the Saturday I went on a boat to have a disco although it was still good it wasn't as good as it has been before when I've been on them.

This week I've been to see Riccardi ** in Fulham which was good although the venue was small and hot. Tomorow I've got a aparty that I've been invited to. I also have a few more gigs that I'd like to go to in the next few weeks so that'll give me something more to blog about. I also recnetly found out about a cool new years eve party being done by www.showmastersonhline.com/forum which sounds interesting although a little way off yet and maybe not a good thing to go to by myself.

* If you haven't heard of Paolo Nutini or have but want to know where to go to find out more visit - www.paolonutini.com.
** A little bit more plugging for my fav bands at the moment lol - www.riccardi.co.uk.

Well I did have a busy week planned

2006-07-17T14:36:00.000+01:00

I mentioned in my last blog my busy gig filled week for this week but since then things hasve meant it's not looking quite so busy and has the potential of being quite a dissapointing week but it could still be good. The gig on Sunday which was to see Tabby & The Tsars (www.tabbyonline.com) was prosponed (I took the oppertunity instead to go to the beach although I only paddled ;-P) and I'm now unsure if I can do the street teaming or even get in at all to the Paolo gig I had planned to attend as it is an over 18 venue but after finding this out I contacted the UKU person and was told to ring Paolo's tour manager which I did (which I have to say being a quiet and shy person was a little scary lol) but I now have to wait to find out, he said there probably wouldn't be a problem but I'm not getting my hopes us just yet. I do hope though, that whatever the answer, I know before Wednesday as, if I can't go to the other gig I want to, I might make plans to get to a signing on Wednesday or another gig.

I do still have plans for tomorow and for Saturday though so, hopefully, there will be no other complication and I shall be able to do those things without too much difficulty. :-) So actually, if everything goes well I will still have a good, fun-filled week. :-D :-)

ps. I've also been thinking about getting some of the few reaming tickets to the Reading festival but first need to find someone who is already going, which is proving tricky. I'm also still in need of a job as at £60 for a one day ticket (and consdering I have plans to go and see The Feeling again and msot probably some others later this year and I have new pans for costumes to wear to the random film cons and similar events I like to go to including Hogwarts robes and a Captain Jack Sparrow) I think i'm going to need the money.

pps. I have just noticed I started this blog last July so hopefully, if I remember I will blog on the date that I started to mark this very important occasion ;-P.

The wanderer returns

2006-07-09T16:46:00.000+01:00

I'd like to be able to say that the reason for my absence in blogging was down to my very busy schedule but that would not be entirely true although there is some truth in it.

My last post was made after my prom, in the middle of what I can only reflect as being 'not your average weekend'. It had started with my prom which is obviously not something you do every weekend, neither is going in a big posh car or having an almost all night party. The saturday that I last blogged on was reasonably normal but on the Sunday I woke early to get to the London Film and Comic Con, dressed in my elf dress. I was fine in the car, we didn't get too lost and although I had planned to leave a bit earlier we still arrived at a reasonable time. The arriving was a little scary to say the least. There was rather a long queue which if not quite concerning in itself, do remember that I'm in full LOTR elf costume and I can't see anyone else in any sort of costume atall!!! Me, feeling slightly self concious and stupid, you bet! I bravely still got out of the car and di walk to the end of the line where I stood with great hope of seeing somewhen else in a costume as soon as possible. Before long I had and felt slightly less stupid and I have to say by the end of the day I was relunctant to leave and get out of my costume and am already planning my next. I do think there were more people in costume on the Saturday which was unfortumate but I did see a few as the day went on and got a few positive comments regarding my dress and a few people wanted to take photos of me.

I was pleased to get in and be able to get my talk tickets for the Dr Who talk which I found interesting and the Elijah Wood talk which was good also. I also managed to get Elijah's autograph and my photo taken with him, he is very lovely and friendly although I did feel he was being rushed a little towards the end because he had lots more people wanting autographs and not alot of time until the time when he was to leave. I would have liked some sort of comment on my costume but hey we can't have everything I guess. I hope he did actually know that it was a LOTR costume atleast. :-)
I also had my photo taken with K9 lol and took some photos of all of the other guests, I did afterwards think I should have gone to the John Barrowman and the Lost talk aswell though. Also I'm thinking perhaps I should have got John Barrowman's autograph as he did seem rather nice. I got a couple of photos of him though (but they're not very good quality) -

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On the Monday after this I decided to go up to London for the Pirates of the Carribean premiere. I didn't get up there until the afternoon so couldn't get near the entrance areabut out of the places I could have stood I think I did choose the wrong place as where we were not many of the bigger names walked by us apart from Bill Nighy, Orlando Bloom. The presenters of the Friday night project also walked by us, Mostly people just drove by us and I didn't get any autographs from any of them or many decent photos. I am now thinking of going to the next one, whenever that is next year and going early enough to get a good position is I can though.

On Thursday I went to see the film itself and I thought it was good. I liked the first one and although at first my feeling was that it was still better than the 2nd but I'm not so sure now. The comedy in it appeals to me and I love the comic genius lines especially those of Captain Jack Sparrow and I also love the not so obvious humorous moments and the sexual innuendo aswell. I do think the whole thing with Jack being the cheif and on the stick was funny. I wore a home made T-shirt (that didn't turn out as good as I would have liked but was still o.k) saying 'But why is the rum gone?' on it, so was pleased to hear a comment similar to it in this new one. I did like the links back to the first. I also had, on the back of my t-shirt, a line from this one - 'I love those moments...' which is also amusing. I have to say I'm trying to find another oppertunity/reason to go and see it again. I bought the 1st on dvd (I'd only previously rented it several times) and have watched that one again. I'm afraid pirate fever has taken over for awhile.

I do have a not so busy week planned, infact I have nothing planned this week, well until Sunday anyway, which marks the start of a busy, gig filled week including an oppertunity to see Paolo Nutini again. Speaking of Paolo, his debut single got to number 5 in the charts today which is great, having been a fan of him since back in about 2004 I'm very pleased and hope that he continues to have success. :-)

My Prom

2006-07-01T23:04:00.000+01:00

Well my prom was yesterday and it was lovely, I loved my dress, then car (it was a bit like a limo) and it was great to be able to hang out with all my friends. The after parties were good too and I had many laughs although a certain thing/s that I would have liked to have happened didn't and I I got very little sleep. Some people, I think, didn't actually go to bed at all and we had people that had came from another party arrive rather drunk I think at about 4/5am so I'm quite tired today and I decided (or rather was asleep) not to go to dancing as I usually do on a Saturday. I did watch the football this afternoon, would have been nice for us to have gone all the way but hey, I still have Murray in the tennis to support :-) I'm hoping to hbuy a Uniom Jack flag to replace my England ones somewhen.

Despite the tiredness I'm looking forwrad to going to the London film and comic con tomorow to hopefully meet Elijah Wood. my dress is now finished and my wig bought so I'm all ready I think but I am now a bit nervous about actually going out in public like this although I no longer am going by train most of the way. That would have been quite funny to seee peoples reactions though. ;-P I have posted a photo of my in this dress (although it's not completely finished in the photo and I don't have my wig on so have smudged out mosy of my head lol) on www.showmastersonline.com/forums in the LFCC section (top one), in the 'what costumes will you be wearing...?' topic if anyone wants to see. If anyone who reads this and actually knows me and isn't just a random reader wants to see a photo of me in my prom dress (some people seem intersted in such things for somereason ;-) ) then post a comment and I'll email some as I don't want to post it where anyone can see it. :-D :-)

All dressed up and somewhere to go (hopefully) :-)

2006-06-29T15:15:00.000+01:00

Well my induction day went o.k, I had a good time, enjoyed the lessons that I did - English Language, Media Studies, Critical thinking and Computing although I did notice that I was the only girl I think in my computing class but I presume there will be more people when we actually start. (I especially a quiz that meant I could show off with my knowledge of celebrities ;-P). I spoke to a few people I didn't know but most people seemed to have there little groups already sorted so I didn't make any friends as such but hopefully I will get to when I start (that's if I get the right GCSE's). I do now know how to get there and back on the train although it might take me a a little longer to be certain of how to get to it at the other end.

Anyway back to now, my prom is being held tomorrow which I'm both excited and a little apprehensive about. I'm quite happy with my dress but I am quite self conscious so will prob feel nervous in it to start with. We are supposed going in some big car, not sure what it is but I think there will be about 10 of us. After the prom it self I hope to go to one of the after parties although how and which I'm not sure yet. My dress is a lovely aubergine colour and is long and straight (and a little too tight despite me quite thin anyway) with little sequins at the top. I also have a very nice bag which I think gives me the look of film stars from the past. I might put some photos on here but I think I will blur my face out of it lol.

On Sunday, I have another dress to wear, one that my mum has very kindly made me. It is cream and has sparkly gold bits around the long arms and around the top and I have a gold belt and a blonde wig. I'm not decided whether I'm going to be an elf, Gladariel (sp) or Eowyn yet as it could sort of me either although prob looks more like one of the dresses in the film of the latter. I am ofcourse, if you've seen them/read the books, talking about Lord of the rings as I'm going to hopefully meet Elijah Wood and have my photo taken with him. I think I might have mentioned this a few times. ;-P.

As I do have a bit of a taste for trying to meet famous people. I also have bee looking into trying to get to London for the Pirates of the Caribbean 2 premiere in London. I'm not sure just how early I'd need to get there though to get anywhere near the barrier, presuming that all premieres are done in the same way. I think I'll have to look into that a bit more before deciding whether to go. It would be rather cool to see Johnny Depp in the flesh even if it be from afar.

A new adventure

2006-06-25T23:41:00.000+01:00

I'm off to my induction day for the college I will hopefully be starting in September tomorrow, I'm a bit nervous but also excited about it and I'm sure at some point I'll get round to telling you how it goes tomorrow.

I watched Pride and Prejudice (newest version) today and was ashamed of myself for not watching it before (I had heard of it, how can you not have done? ;-P) as I loved it. I have to say I love a lot of things set in those sorts of times with the costumes and dialect. I even went out and bought the book today. All I need to do now is find my very own Mr Darcy. :-P :-D :-)

ps. Not sure if I've mentioned this already but I was pleased to find I'm doing the tour cover/street teaming/ whatever you want to call it for Paolo Nutini in July which hopefully should be fun. Now I really must go to bed, have to be up early in the morning to get to college for 8.45. :-)

T4 on the beach

2006-06-19T22:56:00.000+01:00

I went to see T4 on the beach yesterday and I did enjoy it although I did come away thinking I could have had a better time for a couple of reasons. I've not got round to coming and blogging about this till now and I'm tired so will come and edit this and prob write my review of all the atrists/bands that I saw (and can remember) and some other random info from the day tomorow. :-D :-)

Edit: Well it's tomorow so here's my report of Sunday. Left home about 8.30 with my dad and cousin and went to pick my other cousin up before heading towards Weston-Super Mare. At about 11.45 (I think) we arrived on the beach and found a place to park. As we drove onto the beach (yes the carpark was actually on the beach and the parking tickets actually said 'Beware rising tides'!) I think I heard the All American Rejects singing 'Dirty little secret' (I think that's what it's called) so I missed them, I also managed to miss The Automatic. They started their set as I began to walk from our car the the entrance and the walk was so long that by the time we'd reached the entrance they'd finished their set so although I could hear them and sort of saw a bit of them on the big screens I would have liked to have been closer, I'm currently loving their song 'Monster', I might actually look into seeing them somewhere else. Anyway once we were inside the actual place Lily Allen came on, her music isn't really what i'd listen to normally and we were trying to find somewhere to sit and then eat our lunch so wasn't really listening properly. Once we had had our lunch (almost). The proper part of the day started, with the T4 presenters being introduced and the first of many cued (is that the right cue?) applauses. Basement Jaxx were the first of the 'main' acts (I guess the rest had been support acts, and I think that Frank must have been on just before I got there) to come on. I wouldn't buy their music but I don't mind listening to it, it's very catchy and they did a good job singing live, o.k so they may actuallly not have been singing live, I'm not sure, I think atleast some of the acts were but not positive about who wasn't. Can't remember who was on next, some man who I thought was Busta Rhymes until he came on later and Ne-yo at some point too, I'm afraid neither are my type of music. Now I'm struggling to remember the order in which people came on so this will prob be wrong. Mcfly came on an I got up and did a bit of singing along, their music is naff but as I've said before naff can be good and they were. Busta Rhymes's music isn't too my taste and I think I'll leave my descritption of his performance at that so as to avoid angering any of his fans that may be reading this.
So moving swiftly on, The Zuton's were great, love their song Valerie and the other one that I can't remember whqt it is called but I thought they were really good. Embrace sung 'world at your feet' which I like and 'Nature's law' which I also like I was then thinking to myself I hope they do 'ashes' and they did so I was pleased and sung along when I knew the words. Pussycat dolls songs are rather catchy, 'Buttonz' especially but I went off for a toilet break, no offence to them lol. Feeder were really good, they really got the crowd jumping around especially with Buck rogers, which most people seemed to know the words too. Razorlight were also good, I was looking forward to seeing them and I enjoyed their set. I also liked Boy Kill Boy's set although I don't know many of their songs. Simon Webbe'sstuff isn't too my taste again i'm afraid but he did sing better than I expected him too so if he was singing live then that's cool. Orson were good, I only heard them mostly as I went for anoter fun trip to the portable loos. Imagine my annoyance when standing in the long toliet queue I hear the intro to 'Fill my little world' by one of my favourite bands at the moment- The Feeling. I did go over to the side and watch them on the screen but it wasn't as good as it would have been had I been where I was for the others but I have seen them 3 times before so thankfully wasn'ty too dissapointed and I sort of sung along to Sewn in my loo which provided myself with a bit of amusement anyway lol. (If they'd have been singing more than two songs I'd have probably been back to hear them sing atleast 1 song, can't say I really agree with whoever's job it was to decided how many songs each act sang.) Matt Willis had be doing my kind of dancing on the spot to his song 'up all night', not sure what I thought of his new one. I think I need to listen to it again before making my mind up on it. After him I think was Danni Minogue who was good, I'm not particualy a fan of hers, but didnt't mind listening to her. The Pet Shop Boys also performed and I have to say I'm not a big fan of their music atall. Shayne Ward came on, and I then went to get some chips, no offence meant to him as he can sing but I'm not a fan of his songs I'm afraid. The Ordinary boys also performed and were good, I heard them mostly rathet than saw them as walking back to our place in the crowd. Hard-Fi were the special surprise guests as at one point they had been unconfirmed but I'm glad they did come as I thought they were good although I'm not sure if the lead singer was quite, er, right if you know what I mean, I may well be wrong though so will say no more. I think I've mentioned everyone now apart form the last act - Will Young who I did think was good although I think I might have preferred it if he'd chosen some of his others songs that I know better.

We were stood nearish to the back but it was still o.k. Thinking back I do wish I'd tryed to get closer when we fgirst arrived but never mind. You don't get the same atmosphere nearer to the back where people don't seem as bothered and much fewer people are dancing and singing along, as you do at the front. I have to say I wondered why some peopele go as some people don't seem that interested in the music and why have a fun fair at it. Was it not supposed to be about the music?

Once it had finished, and the sun had decided to come out at last (*rollseyes*) ,we went on the long walk back to the car and then the long journey home, we must have left about 6ish but what with the traffic trying to get out of W-SM (appartenly 30,000 people although I'm not sure if all the tickets had bene sold so there may have been less) and taking a different road to which we should really have done, me and my dad didn't arrive home until just after half 10 I think. I then watched abit of what had been shown of the day on the T.V that my mum had taped before going off to bed and not getting up till about 11am the next morning. I was quite tired nearly all day yesterday but I think i'm feeling more awake today.

I had a look on the T4 site and saw they have video's of the Support acts so I've now watched The Automatic singing 'Monster'. On a non-related note I also decided to check out www.pottercastfans.com ( a fansite for a Podcast on the-leaky-cauldron.org - PotterCast) to see if there was any news on the forum as I hadn't been on there for awhile as I'd almost began to give up and was very pleased to see that the forum should be back up soon. :-D

I am pleased...honest

2006-06-16T23:50:00.000+01:00

So it was my last GCSE today, as you'll know if you regularly read my blog, and I am relieved that I survived them all and I didn't get as panicky as I thought I might during them. I had imagined me constantly thinking about them and randomly checking books at all times of the day to check random things that had just come to me but actually I wasn't that bad and I didn't really feel like revising alot if the time, the ironic thing is,now that these exams have finshed and my school days are over, i'm confused and got the urge to revise. I'm not sure I've really got my head around the fact exams are over (for now atleast) and although I did say I was looking forward to leaving and really wouldn't care about leaving school, now I actually have it's weird and I'm a little, just a little sad. I do have to admit that I even enjoyed some of my exams, like the English ones as I'm a bit Hermioneish in that respect (sorry to non-Potter readers qho wont get that) and do like doing exams sometimes. That makes me sound like a right nerd, doesn't it? ;-P :-D :-)

The penultimate GCSE...hopefully

2006-06-15T11:18:00.000+01:00

Aslong as I don't fail and have to redo any of them today I have my second to last exam - Business Studies, I've not done alot of revision for it until just a minute ago although I have looked through my books a bit but it is only worth half a GCSE so it doesn't matter too muich although I still hope I do o.k. Tomorow I have m,y last GCSE- French which shouldn't be too difficult although that may not mean I do well, I haven't really revisied much for it either as I've been busy with subjects like Maths, English and Sceicne and as it was the last one I've kept thinking 'oh it's fine, I've got ages until I have to sit it'. Trouble is now it's only one day and it's my nan's 90th birthday today so we are having a mini party (o.k so it's just a meal with a few people round but that counts as a party, right?). I will try and find some time to do some last minute french revision though and my exam isn't until the afternoon again. Then after about 3.15 tomorow I will be freee. The summer will then involve lots of gigs and outings I expect. You know I said that I was going to stop going to many gigs during my exams? Well that kind of didn't happen, but it's not really my fault if the people I like announce lots of gigs and I don't think they've affected me atall as I haven't been to any the day before an exam. I've noticed that al these small unsigned bands and artists that I've been following for quite awhile are now getting some of the recognition they deserve, now ofcourse that's good for them but it does mean my summer may be quite expensive wityh lots of singles and albums to buy and gigs will I'm sure get more expensive as they get more fans but that'll just mean I'll have to get a job. I want one working with animals but the only places that I can think of are pet shops and I don't really agree with the way they are kept sometimes and would much rather work helping animals but most rescue shelters and similar places are going to be voluntary, which is good but I do need money as I feel a bit bad making my parents pay for all these mad ideas about outings and adventures that I seem to get regularly. :-P I'll have to keep looking I guess...

I'm hoping to go to T4 on the beach this weekend, (although we do know have a spare ticket, anyone interested?) which I bought tickets for back when The Kooks were supposed to be playing. They are now not but although I am dissapointed there are still people there I want to see and hopefully I get to see The Kooks do a proper set somewhere somewhen. Out of the people that are currently announced (if they don't change their minds again like they have been!) the bands/artisits I'm looking forward to/don't mind seeing are (not in a relevant order) - All American Rejects, The Automatic, The Feeling, Embrace, Feeder, Orson, Matt Willis (I've yet to make my mind up whether he's good or not having only heard one song which I did like), Razorlight (Wooo lol), The Zutons and Will Young. I also don't mind listening to Basement Jaxx although I wouldn't buy their stuff, and Mcfly are naff but hey a bit of naff is good. :-D Also the same goes for Danni Minogue, I'm yet to decided whether I like her stuff or not. There are a few people like Shayne Ward Simon Webbe, Lily Allen and others that I'm not sure about yet, what I've heard of theirs hasn't been to my taste. Also the Pussycat dolls aren't who Id'd choose to listen to usually but I'm sure singing along to 'Don't cha' could provide a bit of amusment. Frank are also there who I don't think I've heard before (and Pet Shop Boys who I think I prob should have heard before but can't remember) so I will reserve judgement until atferwards. I think I may go for a toilet break during Busta Rhymes and/or Ne-yo as although I'm sure they're great and have many fans their music isn't really my thing. I amny give them a chance at first thought and listen to a bit. Now don't worry everyone I shal hopefullyl be coming on to blog about this particular adventure with all my comments on the artists - which may be quite long so I'll apologise in advance ;-) lol.

Anyways, I have revision to be doing now so best go and actuyally do it rather than just saying I will do it in a minute. I will prob blog before I go Sunday, I'm sure you will all be fascinated to know if I manage to get tickets for the Elijah Wood photo sessions at the London Film and Comic Con, which I may just have mentioned a few times ;-), as they are supposed to go on sale at 6pm today, I've made random notes around the house so hopefully I will remember! :-D :-)

The Feeling

2006-06-12T21:23:00.000+01:00

I went to see The Feeling for the 3rd time on Friday at the ULU and they rocked! I love their stuff (I've been listening to their album lots at the moment too :-D) and they sound even better live than they do on the album :-D. I would have liked to have got to the front but didn't. I had a good time although I would have liked to hear them sing starnge as even though I've seen them 3 times now, I'm yet to hear it live.

On the exam front, I have 3 more exams left this week, Science, Business Studies and French. I then have an induction day to go to for the College i'm hoping to go to, dance presentation and my Prom to go to in the next few weeks.

8 down 6 to go...

2006-06-07T17:55:00.000+01:00

I've now done 8 exams and have 6 more to go. This means there is still revising to be done but also that I no longer have to learn Music, English lit (although that was actually o.k), R.E or I.T.
I've still got another Maths, Science, French, English and a Business studies exams to do but I'm feeling o.kish about them aslong as I do some more revision.

I don't really have alot to add, well I think I did but I've forgotten again, my mind is all confused at the moment with all the exams and funny days.

A mini-party, street teaming and a lot of walking, all in 3 days

2006-06-04T22:20:00.000+01:00

Friday, I got an invite to a mini party/ get together/ whatever you want to call it, involving a few friends, 2 people I hadn't met before, one of which being rather good looking and alot of drunk people hugging each other. I did get chance to see who was evicted from Big Brother before I went, as despite not wanting to watch it before it started (well apart from Big Brother's big mouth with Russel Brand, obviously ;-D) I have ended up watching and was pleased to see Sezer go out this week.
Saturday- I woke up feeling kind of calm and happy, I opened a package that I had been sent, see that it has next day delivery on it, I'm thinking 'why was it so urgent it got here when I don't need it to the 3rd July?' and therefore decide to check that it was the 3rd July, so I check the email I was sent, that says it is, so I calmed down a little after the intial uh oh feeling but decided to check the venue site just incase. There it says 3rd June. It is the 3rd June. Arghhh! I was supposed to be street teaming for a band called Larrikin Love (who I hadn't actually heard of before I got the email from the site but who were actually quite good) and I wasn't prepared. I had never done it before, I didn't even have a clipboard. So after going dancing and having some lunch and doing some revision as yes there are still 2 weeks of GCSE's left, I go on a shopping trip to buy a clipboard and as I just couldn't resist some skinny black jeans ( I have since tried them on and well they don't look as good on me as they seem to other people IMO soI am yet to decide whether they will be going back). I then went of to visit my nan whilst trying to find someone to come with me to go street teaming and getting a little nervous at the prospect.

A little later on, friends, clipboard, mailing lists and free badges all in the car I was ready, well as ready as I could be having only found out that morning. After a little bit of worry that we weren't going to be allowed in (I hadn't been put on the guestlist as I had been told but when who I think was their tour manager found out we were the street team we were allowed in, free for me and one friend). I was a bit nervous but got into it and when my friends who both smoke deserted me to go to the shop and to smoke various times I was left to actually talk to people by myself, which if you knew how quiet and shy I can be, is scary yet I did it and felt proud of myself and afterall I choose to do it and I wanted to and I did enjoy it and would like to get the chance to do it again. I was a bit dissapointed that my friend deserted me at the end but hey I know to choose someone else to help me if I do get a chance to do it again. *To be continued, It's nearly 11pm y'know *... I think I got quite a few people (about 46) but I haven't done it before and don't know how many people were there, it wasn't completely packed, so don't know if that is good or not. I've now typed them up and sent them pff to the relevant person. It is all run by people on a website's (http://www.ukundercurrent.co.uk) forum which I originally joined so I could be a part of Paolo Nutini's street team although I haven't yet had a chance to do much for apart from ring up for his video on The Hits but I'm hoping I will get to somewhen.

Today, I have completed a 6 mile (I think) sponsered walk for Animal Aid in London.

Tomorow, a maths GCSE which I don't feel prepared for and The Feeling's album comes out, have I mentioned I'm hopefully going to see them this week?.

Another quick update

2006-05-29T17:36:00.000+01:00

Hello to anyobdy who hasn't got bored of reading my blog (when I do actually get round to posting) oh and to anyone who may just be having a nosey around for the first time. I've been busy recently although I've not done alot, I've had my first few GCSE's which I think prob went o.k ish, but some of the important and harder ones are yet to come so still lots of revision to do, but before my exams I've got my half term. Last wednesday I did get to go and see The Feeling do a free short acoustic set in a record store in Soho which was very good and very small and intimate lol, I also got a poster signed by all of them. After that had finished I walked all the way (partly in the rain) to The slaughtered Lamb where Paolo was performing he was good as usual, as was the other artists. I got a Paolo tour poster from there allthough I was too shy to go and speak to him and get it signed. *rollseyes* Tonight I'm off to see Alchemy at The Bedford so hopefully that should be good. Oh and before I go (my train leaves in 45 mins and I'm not quite ready yet!), wanted to mention that I've got into Big Brother and like to watch BB's big mouth althought that's mainly because I think Russel Brand is sexy. ;-D lol I wanted to get in the audience but you have to be over 18 which annoyed me as I can watch it on T.V so I don't see the problem of me going there, I also can't got to any more of Paolo's gig at the moment as they are mostly over 18's. Something I should be able to go to though is the London Film and Comic con who have recently announced photo's sessions to be held with Elijah Wood which should be good, as long as I can get tickets, as I'm planning on being dressed as an elf from LOTR lol. They have also now announced John Barrowman (O.k that could be wrong, it's something like that, he was in Dr Who andI think that Dancing on ice thing). I still need to get my cosutme or make it yet though! One more thing before I go I've joned up on undercurrent.com so that I can be in paolo Nutni's street team whichlooks like fun and it's helping him which is good, he has a video on The Hits and The box at the moment if anyones interested, check it out...shameless plugging lol. :-D Anyways best be off, should get round to reporting on tonight somewhen tomorow or the next day, maybe :-)

ps. This has just been typed in a bit of a rush so sorry for any spelling msitakes. :-)

Paolo Nutini

2006-05-20T23:07:00.000+01:00

I went to see Paolo Nutini in Islington last night and I'm copying the post I made on his forum onto here for now, I shall try and add more of my feelings of the evening tomorow but as my GCSE's are scheduled to start on Monday and I don't feel ready yet I may not get chance. I will just say now incase I don't get round to blogging tomorow I've managed to get tickets to T4 on the beach so am hoping to see The Kooks, The Feeling, The Zutons and Embrace. There's lots of others announced, to be announced but so far I think they are the ones I most want to see.

Anyway here's my report from Paolo's forum -

I did manage to get to this gig last night. It was packed out although it was only quite a small venue. I think that most people were there for the last group (they got the largest cheer to start with anyway lol) but they did seem to like Paolo's set(who wouldn't?). I in the 2nd row from the front and right in the middle so got a good view and I did sing along to a few songs although as noone else was I didn't too much as I didn't want to look stupid. Paolo sung (I think, might get a name wrong) Alloway Grove, (one song I can't remember, thought it might have been rewind but not sure now), Million faces (?), New shoes, Loving you, Last request, and Jenny Don't be hasty. He was great as usuall and I think he prob gained lots of new fans.The other two acts were good, although only saw half the 1st as my train was delayed because of vandilsm (we had the police on and the doors were locked so noone could get off!) and the last group weren't really to my taste but they were good. It was very smokey though which is a shame and I noticed how much people talk all of the time, throughout all the performances. Much better at The Bedford where they have to shut up lol The eventfull journey and smoke was made worth it to see Paolo though Oh and the fact there were many good looking men about might have helped too Just a shame they were prob all much older, I think I was prob the youngest there and I think Paolo might even have been the 2nd youngest in the room lol More younger people need to go to these things I feel a bit out of place. Damn being a teenager.

Revision

2006-05-14T19:19:00.000+01:00

I don't think I've done enough and with only one week left until my exams start, you could say I'm starting to get nervous, trouble is I just can't seem to get motivated and when I do revise I'm not sure if I'm actually remembering any of it.

We got given our timetables for when our exams are going on last week which includes any revision sessions we're supposed to attend (as they wont let us have proper study leave off) which has confused me rather a lot and I'm not really sure where I'm meant to be and I'm thinking when am I going to get time to eat and where would I go to have y lunch and some things go on to when an exam should start so I'm rather confused and would be much happier if it was a bit clearer, the exams are stressfull enough without the added pressure of knowing where I'm supposed to be before and after. Thankfully after the first couple of days the revision sessions get less so I shall be there less and wont have that problem.

Although technically we'll still be at school for a couple more weeks, it's officially the last proper school day this friday which although I don't always like school and am always moaning that I'd prefer not to be there is still quite a scary prospect. After being at school most of my life, not being at school will prob be a bit weird although I do think I will prob enjoy college as I will be doing sunject that I have chosen rather than ones we are being made to do. There is the fact that I will be leaving alot of my friends behind as most are going to other colleges but in some cases I do think that this may be a good thing as some of my so called friends aren't great friends really and I'm hoping that I will make some new ones as I don't really have any close friends at the moment. There are some that I'd like to keep in contact with though and I do plan on having a leaving book with messgages from whoever wants to write in it.

Aswell as all this school stuff going on at the moment (what with Prom outfit/accesories to be sorted too) I can't help but find other things that I want to be doing like going to/planning trips to gigs/conventions, musical and celeberity football matches. *rollseyes* I'll hopefully have less things to think about once my exams have finished on June 16th, I think.

ps. Not sure if I said but my impersonation wasn't played on the second part of PotterCast's impersonation contest whichalthough I was dissapointed, there were lot's of better ones. :)

These are a few of my favourite things...

2006-05-04T11:52:00.000+01:00

I've only just got round to updating you all on my eventful weekend, it started off with me doing a dance exam which although a little bit scary went fine I think and I enjoyed it anyway which is afterall the most important thing. On Sunday, I had to get up at about 7am to get to Milton Keynes at about 9.30ish but by the time we'd actually found the right place to park and where the actual event was taking place it was almost 10am and there was rather a Long queue for the Phelp's twins (aka the Weasley twins) and I was a little concerned that we would not get to meet them before I had to leave especially when I was told that it would be about 2 and a 1/2 hours and considering it was then just gone 10am and I needed to leave by about 12.45/1am that was leaving it a bit late thankfully it didn't take that long and it was our VT numbers that were on the board so we could queue up and meet them. They both seemed friendly, sadly being the shy person that I am I didn't say a lot although my dad asked if they were currently filming and they said they were, he also asked which was which, I wonder how many times they get asked that. Anyways we talked for a bit, I had my photo taken with them and then we went off to meet Afshan Azad, who was very friendly. She wasn't over busy and did have an open queue so she asked me questions about what my favourite character was, what I was looking forward to seeing in the next film and which book was my favourite, unfortunately I had a sort of mind blank and wasn't sure what to say which is annoying as I can usually talk for ages about Harry Potter once you get me started but this time I didn't and kind of said In don't know and sarcastically said that she ofcourse was my favourite character, how could I forget to mention the lovely Neville who is infact my favourite character. After I'd managed to prob make her think I was boring and had my photo taken with her we went off to get some lunch before leaving to drive to Peterborough to get the train to 'Boro. Before that I had got to meet Warwick Davies as he had an open queue also, he was very friendly and I had my photo taken with him. He really is small like Flitwick it's not any camera trickery. I might post some of my photo's on here if I can cut me out easily :P and work out how to do it.

So after a train journey to 'Boro, some tea and getting ready we headed off to the crypt, we got our tickets from the box office and could hear that they had infact already started although I think only just as the first act was being introduced. I have to admit the 1st 3 acts aren't really to my taste but they were all their for the good cause (It was a Brian Clough memorial concert) and I'm sure others did enjoy their sets. I did get the feeling the hall would have been a bit emptier had it not been for Alistair and his band though. He came on about 10.15 and the hall had to be cleared at 11pm so it did feel a bit rushed but he was great none the less, not so much chatting in between but I feel that's only because he was aware of what would be appropriate and this event although I may ofcourse be wrong. I loved the newest song and am looking forward to *hopefully* having their album to listen to somewhen this year. After and during, I did get to talk to lots of people from his site which was lovely as I hadn't seen some of the since York in December and some even longer ago (Hi Gayle and Corinne is you read this, it was nice to speak to you, and hi to anyone else who was there who happens to read my blog :-)).
Once the gig had finished and we'd been 'chucked' out of the venue we went back to the hotel, does sound like I missed out on some fun by not going to a particular hotel first but I had a good time anyway and it was nice to have a chat with some people back at the hotel we were staying at and I didn't want to go to bed too late as I was already shattered, it'd been bit of a busy day, but definitely worth it.

I think I will go to Collectormania 10 at MK if I can and if they have any HP actors there but before that I'm planning on going to a similar event to try and meet Elijah Wood and some people from Lost. Before that though there is that little problem of exams so although tempting I will try not to go to any more gigs between now and the end of them, well apart from maybe going to see Paolo Nutini in the half term, and I'm quite tempted to go and see The Feeling again aswell. *rollseyes* ;-)

I am glad I decided not to stay at Collectormania all day although I haven't heard anything about the Mugglenet podcast yet which I thought might have been put on itunes for us to listen to, hopefully it will be somewhen soon, I would have liked to have gone but i'm hopefully for a leakymug in 2007. Talking of podcasts, I sent in some impersonations of Rita Skeeter, Hermione and Sirius (head in fire moment) to Pottercast for their impersonation contest but it wasn't played in part 1 but it might still be included in part 2 as I did send it in quite late on although it might not be included at all as there was alot of better ones played already in part 2.1. :-D

Now...have I packed everything?

2006-04-29T23:29:00.000+01:00

Well I decided and ordered/sorted tickets/travel/hotel, and as I'm extremely organised and decisive I did this about 2 days before I'm actually meant to be going. ;-D I shall hopefully be going to 'Boro via Mitlon Keynes for reasons I think I've prob blogged about several times before. I think it might be a bit of a rushed day and there will prob be an earlyish morning (which does make me wonder why I'm still awake and posting my blog now). I think I've got everything packed/ready although I'm not sure what to wear, whether to wear my black skirt or not and which top to wear there.

Also just a quick mention of my dance exams that I did today, I was a bit nervous but I think they went o.k, don't know how well I did dance wise but I didn't fall over and don't think I did anything too embarressing so I'm happy that I actually did it. :-) Anyway as it is late and I will need to get up earlyish if I'm to get to Milton Keynes in time to meet who I want to (the Harry Potter actors apart from Robert Pattison who I have already met, in Manchestor :P ) I should really go to bed now as I need sleep :-D :-)

Gigs, conventions, and more gigs... Oh and exams

2006-04-24T21:07:00.000+01:00

I seem to have a lot of things planner, how much of it I'll actually do is another thing but the fact I've got all these things planned (several of which on the same day, samish time in different places) leaves me a bit confused as to what to do and when. I've mentioned the things concerned beofre so wont go into to too much detail although I will mention than Ian Somerholder (aka Boone in Lost) has cancelled. Also I've not had much detail about the Mugglenet podcast and didn't pre-order talk tickets which makes me think I may well not be able to get any. Also Alistair hasn't announced any other gigs yet... although I'm not really sure what decision this leads me to, I do really want to go and see Alistair. It is something that is familiar, I'm not sure if that makes sense but the whole HP thing is newer, I wouldn't know anyone at that event like I would the people at Alistair's gig and I do feel the need to go away somewhere and see Alistair and everyone again, this has alot to do with the stress I'm beginning to kind of feel for a few reasons, one of which being my pending exams, which of course are gettng my full attention at the moment despite the various other things I'm thinking about at the moment *ahem*.
I have a French oral Wednesday which I'm hoping to do o.k in and I can sort of remember everything but I'm still a bit nervous about it, I also am re-recording my composition for my music GCSE and I'm quite aware I need to be revising for my main exams that start in about 3/4 weeks. Oh and there are various other gigs I'd like to go to, prom accesories to find and buy and other things that I'm currently thinking about... busy, me? Well I suppose you could say that.

PotterCast

2006-04-17T11:14:00.000+01:00

Just a quick post to say the second part of the PotterCast call in is up and has my question on it, I don't really like how my voice sounds but hey it's cool that it's on there. If you really have the urge to listen to me (you'll have to skip through to find me, the one that says I'm Jenny, from England, although I suggest you listen to it all if you like HP) you can find it on itunes, go to www.leakynews.com for more info. I'm off out now hopefully as it's the last day of my Easter holidays so might post about that later or might not depending on what time I get home and where I go although I do expect I'll end up playing crazy golf at some seaside resor, not sure it's quite warm enough for a awim yet though, maybe a paddle. ;-P :-)

Mini Dilema

2006-04-13T23:01:00.000+01:00

A certain HP fansite have announced they will be doing a live podcast at an event I was planning on going to for a bit before heading off to 'Boro, but I've left it too late to get the cheap train tickets and if this podcast is in the evening it means it's nearly impossible to do both (depending on days/times), this leaves me with even more of a problem as to which I want to go to more. *rollseyes* :-)

This holiday is for revision not fun

2006-04-08T22:07:00.000+01:00

Well this is what we were told, in a way, by our headmaster before the holiday started. One week in, I have done some revision, but I think, probably not enough. I went out monday, shopping and decided that the revision could start on tuesday, it did but then thursday came and I went off out to The Bedford to see The Story's. I did want to go to Leeds to see Riccardi but as that would have involved a much longer train journey and staying over I thought that was probably not a good idea. As it happens I had a good time at The Beford, I thought The Story's were great, (I have seen them once or twice before when going there and other places to see other people).

On other subjects, today a Podcast all about Harry Potter (run mainly by Americans from www.leakynews.com / www.pottercast.com) is having a call in show so I downloaded skype and have it all set up. They have one at 3am but they also had one at 6pm. Why then am I waiting for the one in the midde of the night/morning? Simply because they have Chris Rankin on it (who plays Percy Weasley in the HP films). I might not even get through to them but I'm planning on waking up at this strange time to try.

One slightly negative thing to mention, I found out that The Feeling were going to be at the XFM big night out in London next week but... it's over 18's only! Never mind, hopefully I shall get another chance...after seeing them the week before last I do want to see them again live somewhen. :-)

Edit: I got through to the Pottercast call in show and got to talk to Mellisa, John and Sue and Chris (aka Percy) I got up especially at 3am but I think it's been worth it, I don't know when it will be put online for al lto listen but I'll hopefully let you know if anyone wants to listen to me prob sounding like an idiot, didn't say alot apart from Hi, my question and a bit of laughing. Still lot's of fun though even if I was shaking and shy lol, I'm too excited to sleep now. *rollseyes* lol ;-D :-)

April Fools Day

2006-04-02T00:11:00.000+01:00

I've had great fun today even though I couldn't think of anything good enough that I could actually do in time but finding out about others has been fun, although one is still saying it is not a joke which is getting slightly worrying although I'm sure it is an aprils fool, I think...

(Another blog to be continued, I will do this one and the other one tomorow hopefully but I seem to remember to do this at some ridiculas time and am too tired to write much *rollseyes* lol)

Edit: I'm back to edit it, well it was an aprils fool but it was also funny, if you're confused then look at www.leakynews.com and scroll down the news for something about arpil fools or a marriage or leakymug. If you don't like HP or have not visited Leaky or Mugglenet I would suggest it's best not to look as it may just confuse you. :-D

Last minute plans

2006-03-30T12:19:00.000+01:00

I was rather disappointed when I couldn't get tickets to go and see The Feeling at a local venue but my mum put my name on the waiting list and we waited without much hope as apparently the list was quite long but yesterday (the day of the gig) at about 6 I got a phone call saying that they had two tickets! So, after quickly having a bit of tea and texting someone else to see if they could get here in time, I had to get ready. I decided to wear the same as I wore to the Bedford last week but I did feel a bit self conscious in my skirt and had a bit of a problem finding any black tights that didn't have holes in them or patterns on them and actually fitted which meant I was later than I wanted to be but as it happened The Feeling weren't on until 10.15 and most people seemed to know this as their weren't many people there at first.

Edit: I'm back to edit this, a little bit later than planned but hey... So 2 support acts, both good, Lorraine (the 2nd) the best out of the 2 imo and then it was time for the main act. I'm so pleased I actually managed to get tickets in the end as they were great, sound even better on the cd which is a good sign. Some bands/artists sound worse as they're voices are so manipulated on cd's, some sound the same and some sound even better which I think can be the sign of a great band especially when they already sounded great on the CD. They were on for about 45mins I think, and then it had ended, no encore so went out to text my dad but then Lesley (who I was there with) went off in search of The Feeling and she was gone for a bit so I thought i'd go back in to the place where the gig was held and there she was with Dan the lead singer so I got to meet him, have him sing my half ticket (why do they feel the need to tear my ticket in half, I wasn't sure what else to get signed) and have my photo taken with him which was really cool and then I went off home to try and get some sleep as I had school the next day. :-)

Weekly updates

2006-03-26T22:36:00.000+01:00

I've decided to try and do weekly (ish) updates as I rarely get round to blogging during the week and I've almost forgotten today so will just make a quick few points which I will, probably, expand on tomorow.

*Monday went to see Alchemy at The Bedford, lovely place, had a good time - train delayed on way back got home about 1.10am so didn't get as much sleep as I would have liked.

*Was proud of myslef for having the confidence to wear a skirt and a slightly 'un-conventinal' outfit instead of my normal boring jeans. :-)

*Otherwise only school stuff going on this week.

*I did miss out on the oppertunity to see The Feeling perform near me though, as I didn't find out about it until recently (although my mum reckons she told me ages ago lol) so they had sold out and although my name was put on a waiting list thing I think the list already had a few people on it so I'm not holding out much hope that I'll get any for this so will have to wait for another oppertunity which I don't know when that will be.

Edit: Well it's tomorow, and I've come to expand on the things I blogged about yesterday but can't actually remember what else I was going to write.
I'm still trying to decide what to do, after reading the reports of Alistair at Blakey (sp), I do want to go to 'Boro but it's a long way, costs quite a bit and I really want to go and meet the Weasley twins and dress up as Luna to go to Collectormania 9 at Mitlon Keynes. Yes you did read that write, I want to dress up as Luna. I seem to have bcome somewhat of a Luna/Neville shipper recently since I discovered that Neville was one of my favourtie characters and I spent 5 hours queueing in London to be Luna, needless to say I didn't get the part, didn't even get through to the next round but if you remember reading my report at the time you'll know that I thought it was worth it anyway. So anyone, I digress (have I spelt that right.. it sounds like an impressive word and I've been waiting for an oppertunity to use it), for the benefit of anyone not up on the terms used in the Harry Potter fandom, shipping comes from the word relationship, so me leaning towars a Neville/Luna ship means that I think they would be good together, although that does not mean I think they will get together in book 7. On the subject of book 7, I've decided that I would quite like to go to Edinbrugh for the release of the last book and as I found out it is only a 6 hour jounrey which when you think it has taken me 5 hours to get to 'Boro is not much further and they often have things going on there aswell as the place supposedly being a nice place too. Annnnyway back to the Neville/Luna thing, I decided to write a fanfic but I'm taking my ship one step further...I want to dress up in ful Hogwarts uniform (don't yet know where I'm going to get a Hogwarts robe from though) and got to meet matthew Lweis (aka neville) for the second time. The only problem with this plan is, Matthew Lewis,a lthough he was announced as coming on the Collectormania webstie and forum, his parents revealed to Leaky (www.leakynews.com) that he had not yet been approached to attend. The same is true for Devon Murray (aka Seamus Finnigan). I think I will find a hogwarts uniform costume as I'm sure that if not this time, I will find an oppertunity to wear it (don't necessairly have to get a blonde wig and be Luna). I'm not too bothered about seeing Matt again, I would like to meet Devon somewhen but I am hoping that the weasley twins will definately be there, although as they are busy they are only scheduled to be there on Sunday which thinkI mentioned the other day. This is just one of those really annoying things, if it was saturday there would be no problem but it's not, it's sunday. I want to go to 'Boro on sunday, now I have looked into, technically I could do both but it's not exactly an ideal situation and I don't think my dad thinks much of my idea. If I was tyo get there early enough and could get the twins and I would also like to get Boone from lost's autograph within about 2 hours (events start at 10), then I can get lunch and leave at about 1 to drive to Peterborough at about 3 and get the train to 'Boro which should arrive at about 6. I would then have an hour to dump my stuff in a hotel room and wash/change before finding the venue. I've not allowed a time for tea in this plan though, unless I got something no the train, I suppose I could get something hot at lunch and then have a sandwhich or something on the train. Now you see thing would work but it would be a rush and if we got delayed in traffic we could miss out train and not get there. Now Alistair isn't on until about 10 so I have plenty of time to get there but I don't really want to turn up half way through. We could drive to B'ham though which may give me more time... I think I might be spending some time looking at different train journey details. Oh joy!

Why is it that you always find lot's of things you want to do/go to when there is something else you need to be doing?

2006-03-20T13:47:00.000Z

I'm currently in my final year at school - year 11 ad doing my gcse's, which as the teachers like to keep telling us at every oppertunity, are very important. I have coursework, homework and revision to do, yet I also have lot's of fun things I want to do. I blogged about the Collectormania event that I wanted to go to, well now more people have been announced that I would lik to meet, but they are all scheduled to be only appearing on the sunday, which considering I was tempted to go to 'Boro to see Alistair Griffin is a bit annoying as I just don't think I can do both, then again going to 'Boro would cost alot of money and be quite along journey and when Alistair is only doing a 45 min set, it think perhaps the sensible thing would be to wait for antoehr gig that I can get to more easily. My worry is though, that the next one either wont be for ages or will be during my exams or someother thing that I have already planned to go to.
I was also rather excited to discover that Elijah Wood aka frodo in LOTR, which although I haven't actually watched that, I think he's pretty cool and I would like to go to this Film con to meet him. I'm also keeping my fingers crossed that 'Charile' in Lost is announced and as this isn't too far from me and is after my exams, that shouldn't be too difficult to go to.

I'm hoping to be able to go to the Bedford to see Alchemy today which should be good although I've decided to go on the train as it is quicker - means I can leave later - which inturn means I have more time to watch the Harry Potter & Gobelt of fire dvd that has been released today, which being the Potter nerd that I am, makes me quite excited.

Bells about to go so better go, not that I have many other sites to go on as they seem to ban more very few hours. *rollseyes* :-)

What to do...

2006-03-15T19:53:00.000Z

Decisions, one of those things in life that can make me confused although I in some cases having a decision to make, makes life fun and interesting. I have a prom coming up in the summer and have been thinking that it will be fine, I have awhile yet but I went shopping for some and quickly realised getting/ ordering and altering dresses takes time and that's without the time it takes for me to decide which I want. I have been to several shops and so far have found 2 that I really like. One is turquoisey (not sure if that's even a word) and sort of 'hippy' chick with elegance mixed in and apparently was seen on a 'celebrity' in a different colour...not that, that would influence my decision at all :-P. The other is dark purple and is very elegant and lovely but I just don't know which I prefer. The first suits my eye/skin colouring and the hippiness is probably more me but this is a prom and the lovely deep purple that is so nice is tempting me rather a lot but I just don't know. The problem for me, as well as deciding which I want, is getting one that actually fits, the purple one will have to be ordered in a size 2 (which is a size 0 is American sizing!) but the turquoise one would just need altering even though it is a size 10 which to me makes no sense but... There both quite expensive which is also making me wonder whether I should try and find a cheaper one as it is likely that I'll only wear it once and I'll also probably be the one at the Prom that sits in the corner feeling self conscious and out of place. *rollseyes* I think I really need to have another look around this weekend and decide by next week so I still have time to order the Purple one if I decided it is that one that I want.

On another totally un-reletted subject but another thing involving decisions is whether or not to go to 'Boro town hall to see Alistair Griffin in April. I do want to go but I am not sure whether to wait until he comes a little further south, that's if he does do a gig further south anytime soon. Also I need to find out more information about Collectormania 9 (which I really want to go, the actors who play the Weasley twins are going to be there, and come on, who doesn't love the Weasley twins ;-) Also Robert Pattison is scheduled to be there and even though I have met him already I'm not going to say no to seeing him again ;-P (I am hoping other HP actors will be anounced and I wouldn't object to the lovely Matthew Lewis or Tolga Safer* being there. ;-) I've also got to decide whether to go and see Alchemy and (although I do have awhile before having to) whether to go and see Tabby again although I'm hoping for an easier to get to gig to be announced before the other one happens. I do have a Uni Summer school and hopefully a trip to see Riccardi to look forward to probably but... I do also have these things called exams, GCSE exams tro be exact and they need to be revised for and Coursework needs to be completed/improved ect. I now which is more important so that is what I am going to try and concentrate on. I also need to sort out other aspects of my life such as the amount of time I spend on my computer and the time I go to bed (too late!) I also want some spare time to read more of the J K Rowling (auto) biography (I'm never sure which it is if it's one that's been written by someone else?) I have been reading and to add some more to my fanfic amongst other things. Oh and ofcourse there's the minor fact that the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire DVD comes out on monday so hopefully I will be able to get a copy although I don't know when I will get time to watch it all through with my mum (who hasn't seen it yet, whereas I have seen it 3 times) and to watch the special features. :-)

*aka Bob **

** Don't ask***

*** No really don't (in truth I'm not sure I could tell you the true reason as I'm not sure of it myself)... although you could check out his fansite - www.kingofhogwarts.proboards51.com ;-D

Myspace address

2006-03-12T19:23:00.000Z

http://spaces.msn.com/mysecretsinside/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c02_owner=1

Hope this works :-)

Edit: If anyone tries it, can you let me know if it works, thanks :-)

Myspace

2006-03-11T23:51:00.000Z

Just a quick post from me (mainly because it's nearly nidnight and I'm tired and would lie to go to bed) to say that I now have my own space. I'm still getting used to the stuff and I also can't seem to add people as friends as when I try and log in it tells me it's wrong and it won't send me my password so I can't work out what to do or who to ask but if anyone wants to add me as a friend that would be cool. :-) It can be found at the normal bit/ secretsinside or mysecretsinside I think, I'm not actualy sure, i'll prob look it up and post it tomorow. :-)

I'll try and come on here and blog tomorow, I have stupid size stories to talk about - how can you have sizes 2 and 0 and why am I prob a 2 in dresses when I'm usually an 8! I do have a busy day tomorow though with homework, more dress shoping prob and practicing for a Gcse music practical on monday which I have to have 3 pieces learnt (I play keyboard).

Busy, Busy, Busy

2006-03-08T09:43:00.000Z

I seem to have a hundred and one things to do this week and in the coming weeks but I am trying to keep my blog updated (which means usually doing it at school, not always a good idea depending on what I'm writing, nobody knows I have a blog and I don't really want half the people at my school to read it incase I mention them ;-) lol ).

I'd mentioned that I'd had a college interview coming up and I don't think i've mentioned it since so I went to it and I was a bit apprehensive but it was fine, not heard anything yet though, so hope I've been accepted, I'm going to the college's open evening today as I want to look into the subjects I want to do and make sure I'm happy with it all.

I've recently been shopping for a prom dress which I wasn't going to do yet as I thought it would be too early but it seems they are already running out of lots of the nice ones which means I need to hurry up and find one as I found out when I went that even size 8's and too big and some of the size 6's were aswell! I was looking for a deep purple but after seeing the choice I think I might have to change my mind and go with what ever I can find. I'm hopefully going to go to this particular shop again this week with my mum, hopefully I won't get stuck in the dresses or rip them (this nearly happened when I went before...I think I need more practice of putting dresses on and a bigger changing room would be helpful I got in a right muddle the other day *embarrassed* lol.

Aswell as the reasonably o.k things I also have a Gcse Science exam today, music practical on Monday, a application for a uni summer school to fill in asap, science coursework to improve, 12+ pages of French to learn for April, a practice English exam on the 23rd March, and we are supposed to have started revision for our main gcse's. Now I understand what the teachers meant when they warned us Year 11 might be a busy year!

* I was going to go and see either Tabby or Paolo last week but in the end I decided not to but thanks to someone I got a copy of Paolo's cd which is great. There is even a song with my name in it. I/m hoping I will get another chance somewhen to see them both. I'm currently still considering going to see Alchemy but it is on the same day as the harry Potter dvd comes out...when will I get time to watch it lol.

A break down in communication

2006-03-02T09:27:00.000Z

I was without my computer on Tuesday as it was booked in to go to PC World. I had tried to change the screen resolution as it wasn't all on the screen but itwent blank and we had to ring a helpline to fix it which meant that we had then fixed the other problems we had but the graphics card was not working properly so the icons and everything were huge. It is now fixed which is good but I wasn't pleased when told that I couldn't have the computer back that day. I did manage without it though but I realised just how important my computer and the internet is to me.

On a completely different subject, something that doesn't require the internet, well only to research certain details, is writing my very own fanfiction, which for anyone who doesn't know is when you write your own story using characters and other details from an already written book. Mine is a Harry Potter fanfiction, unsurprisingly ;-), and it features one of my favourite characters - Neville aswell as Luna as it's main characters although I expect it will include most of the others at some point. I decided to write a fanfic about Neville and Luna because I love Neville and I think that him and Luna would make an interesting couple. The HP books are told from Harry's point of view, hence the name, but I decided to write mine in Neville's, I'm trying to keep the story of the book the same but from Neville pov rather than Harry's which means any points that Harry is not with Neville in the actual book I can invent although I may not get all my facts right. I think mine makes most sense if it is fitted along side GOF as I don't think at that point neville as met Luna properly and the stuff at the ministry hasn't happened yet and neither has the graveyard stuff so the tone is reasonably cheery at this point. :-) I'm not really sure where I'm going with it, I started one before but didn't finish it. I started a couple of my own stories when I was younger, about ghosts mainly because they were the sorts of books I read then although now I enjoy reading a different genre and I'm hoping to get further with this than I did any of those that I attempted before. I'm currently reading an autobiography of JK Rowling which is quite interesting and was talking about her childhood home which sounded to be in a lovely rural area, which is what I imagine Neville to live in so I'm hoping to add that detail into my fanfic at some point, but I'm not sure where to put it yet.

On another completely unrelated subject, I went to the Latin dance group again this morning as I have been doing for the last few weeks. It's called a Latin group but I didn't think the waltz was a Latin dance although what do I know? lol, we have also learnt bits of other dances that I did consider Latin dances and I am really enjoying it and I was proud of myself because I did go there by myself at first which for a quiet, shy person like me is an achievement. :-) I'm now considering applying for a place on a summer school at a university, either Oxford or another one that I can't think of at the moment when nearly all of my friends are going back to one that we went to last year for a few days (Winchester), I've not decided for definite but as I have already been there before I thought it would be more beneficial to take the opportunity to experience another university this time but it would mean probably being the only one from my school there which is quite scary considering it would be a little way from home and for a week. I think I have until Monday to decide!

Resolutions renewed

2006-02-23T09:57:00.000Z

I thought I'd posted al my new years resolutions but I can't find them so I can't have done but I will post a bit of an update to them. There are a few that I have achieved which are -

*Joining a Latin dance group
*Going to lots of gigs and other events (Alchemy, Collectormania, Tabby so far...hopefully/maybe Tabby again somewhen, Paolo and Alchemy again next month and I'm hoping for a chance to see Alistair, Riccardi and The Story's somewhen :-) )
*I sent my college application off (I now have an interview to go to next weeek which I'm a bit nervous about)

I have failed with one though - spending less time on my computer, going to bed earlier and getting up early enough to get to school on time. I really need to start spending more time on school work and revision rather than on the computer and I need more sleep, so this is a end of feb resolution. I have a Science modular biology test on the 8th so I need to start revising a bit for that and I have a english practice test on the 23rd.

A passing hello

2006-02-21T22:31:00.000Z

Hello. I've been meaning to post but I've not got round to it, I'm hoping to soon though, as I want to have a look back at the new years resolutions I made, see which I've acheived/failed and which I still can do and which need to be changed or updated. :-) So hopefully I will blog about that (and maybe even an update on my Harry Potter obsession *ahem* I mean interest) soon :-)

ps. I went to see Tabby and The Tsars on Saturday and they rocked. :-) :-D

A kind of sucessfull week

2006-02-18T15:16:00.001Z

Well I've managed to go to Manchestor, meet some of the Harry Potter cast, join a new forum (for Tolga Safer) and buy a skirt for £3 that was originally about £20ish, oh and I've done a bit of revising too ;-) :-D I'm off to see Tabby (1st X-factor) performing soon so that should be good, back to school tuesday though. :-)

Should I stay or should I go?

2006-02-12T00:22:00.000Z

I've been neglecting my blog a bit recently and i'm afraid it will be atleast another day until I can make a proper entry. It is half term next week so I should get time to post although I have quite a bit of revision/homework to do,I am hopefully going to see Tabby (x-factor) perform next week though and maybe go to a few other places aswell :-) I'm currently debating whether or not to take the long journey to Collectormania (www.collectormaingmex.co.uk) tomorow.

Not going today meant I could go Latin dancing this morning which was fun, it was my 3rd week, I am hopfully going to continue going as I enjoy it.

Edit: I went to Collectormania, it was great, I got to meet all of the Harry Potter cast members that were there and have my photo taken with them and their talk was funny. I've written more about it over on Alistair-griffin.co.uk in the highlights thread, may write more here tomorow, too tired now lol :-)

Tuesday's child

2006-02-06T21:35:00.000Z

I have now finished a 2nd Louise Bagshawe book, after I enjoyed reading Monday's child I thought it would be good to read Tuesday's child and although not as good as the first, it was still an enjoyable read. Whereas in the first book, you knew really what was going to happen quite early on but in this noe although, to an extent you did there were a few surprises, for instance I did not think Todd would end up in court for Fraud or something along those lines and I actually didn't see the Victoria thing coming, I thought he didn't like her lol, but I did correctly guess who Lucy would end up with. As was the same in the last book though, when I got to the end I wanted more, although I can imagine what would have happened I wanted to read about Victoria's reaction and Lucy's family and read about their wedding and everything. I know some people prefer things to be left like that but I'm one who loves to read all the little details.

Not sure what to read now, I get confused if I go to the library with all the rows of books and no idea where to start looking or what I'm really looking for, yet I really enjoy reading but never know what to, I think I need to find something soon, before I start to re-re-reading the Harry Potter books ;-) lol

If anyone's got any suggestions for books that they think I might like going by what I've posted about the others that I have read or just has some that they really like, leave a comment :-)

Pottering

2006-01-30T23:16:00.000Z

O.K, sorry I have just taken the title from the title used on DA for my contribution to the DA birthday blogs but I couldn't think of anything better and it sort of fits.
My computer has been into PC World again today so I'm a bit behind with everything and am late to bed and tired but wanted to post this quickly while it is more relevant.
A website I visit www.leakylounge.com celebrated it's birthday recently and had many fun ways of celebrating this occasion on the site. This site also has a podcast - www.pottercast.com, which recently revealed a project/plan it/leaky was working on and then left us to theorise as to what this could be, we still do not know for sure what it is although I'm thinking some sort of search/ better site, new layout, archive type thing perhaps, anyway back to Pottercast, if you like Harry Potter I think you should listen to it, it does have lots of interesting discussions on it but also it nearly always makes me laugh, and I enjoy listening to it, so much so, I contacted someone who ran a fansite for it when they mentioned perhaps setting up some forums and she said I could be a super mod on this fansite for Pottercast - www.pottercastfans.com/forum. Go and check it out, if you want :-) (O.K shameless plugging going on here ;-) )

*I'm sure there was also something else I was going to mentione but can't remeber what it was, might not have been anything lol :-)

Late as usual

2006-01-29T00:38:00.000Z

So I'm late again, (although technically it's only an hour since Saturday actually ended) and I've already seen what others have blogged about in celebration of the wonderful blog that is DA's birthday, to be honest they're all too good to compete with, I couldn't choose what to blog about and I talk rubbish most of the time so I'll keep this short and try not to talk about anything too complicated, especially not when it is about half 12 at night and I'm about to fall asleep on my keyboard.

I'm not sure if I'd have started blogging at all if it hadn't have been for DA, I happened to stumble across it one day and have been reading it regularly since then. I was relieved to find someone who blogged about Harry Potter, someone older and more intelligent As well, which made me think it was O.k for me to mention it, quite a bit I must admit (there's more HP related stuff to be blogged about tomorrow, *oh goody I hear you cry*) in my blog. I can see why the fascination with Snape aka Alan Rickman is there but I prefer the good guys ;-) (hmm, yes Snape may still be good but that's a much too complicated issue to go in to now). So anyway better get to the point to this blog as I said this would be short. You can blame DA for me starting my blog or if you like my blog you can thank DA...i'll leave you to decide which you'd rather do ;-) :-)

Oh how I love a happy ending...

2006-01-28T21:45:00.000Z

Well, I have finished reading the book - Monday's child by Louise Bagshawe and it does have the happy although quite predictable ending that I was hoping for.

I haven't really read many books recently with the exception of Harry potter books, which I've read and re-read and maybe even re-re-read. I used to get a lot of books from the library, mostly teen murder mystery books, I think most of them were series type books (point something perhaps, not sure) and really all I have read before has been children's books (I know Harry Potter is no longer purely a children's book but it was originally so that kind of counts) so this was a different type of book to which I'd read before (although it did have two references to Harry Potter in it which was amusing to me) and I loved it. I wasn't sure at first but I really got into it. I felt a connection to the main character 'Anna Brown' as I am, like her, the not so pretty one amongst much better looking friends who get all the boys attention, there's quite a few differences as she is in her 30's and thinks she's fatter than lots of people which is the opposite to be being skinnier than most people, which is not always an advantage as some may think. I don't usually mind my friend having more interest from boys but I have to say this week because I do actually quite like someone at the moment so I noticed the fact that they all seem to manage to quite easily get boyfriends more and reading this book was quite interesting, I wonder if I'll get a similar happy ending (although perhaps not the possible marriage bit ;-) )

Anyway I did really like the book and now I'm actually disappointed that I've got to the end, I wanted to read more about Anna and Mark Swan and be told all about their marriage, which she'd have invited Kitty and all the other people who laughed at the thought of her and Mark, just so she could show people you don't good looks aren't always everything, I'd also liked to have read more about how her job as a screenwriter went, now I know this is meant to be left to the imagination but I just wanted more to read. I think I may start reading her next book 'Tuesday's child' I'm wondering whether there is/will be books for all 7 days, having read the back I'm not sure if it'll be as good, sort of sounds like it's on the same lines as the other one but I didn't[t known ow much I was going to enjoy 'Monday's child' when I read the back so I think I'll give 'Tuesday's child' a try.

* Hope this all makes sense, I've left it until the evening when I'm tired again, although having spend too much time on the computer last night and getting up to listen to Alex Zane (one of my new obsessions, O.k well not really an obsession, I just think he's great) on Xfm (although turned out he wasn't presenting the show this week for some reason, not sure if we were told what it was, was concentrating more on my book than I was listening to the radio for most of the time and then I went Latin dancing which was fun, I wasn't the only one, although there were two people I sort of know from school which was a bit embarrassing but the shy quiet person that I am, was proud of myself for going even though my friend couldn't come so I went by myself and actually talked to someone :-D I'm hoping to go again :-)